thank god I feel so much better today I can start to see the fog clearing and I can start to think about another day I'll be 27 in november I'm not old but I'm not a teenager anymore I have had so many infertility problems in the past so I talked to my wonderful husband and he let me know that when ever I'm ready to try again then we can I have never been a quitter at anything so the pity party is over for me I will always love that baby I lost I will never forget my jellybean but now it's time for me to look ahead to my next pregnancy I have come to far to give up now and I thank god for giving me the strenght to move on pass this I have faith in the lord and I know that he is all knowing so with that faith I pray that I get pregnant quick and that I have a happy healthy pregnancy/baby!