DeathByDegrees's Journal

hello to anyone who takes the time to read this....thanks for tuning into RadioCrazy lol.

i seem to have gone slightly crazy here. i cant seem to think of anything but self harming...but i dont want to! iv made it so long without giving in to the urge...31 days now...thats the longest iv gone without it in about 7 years. hooray for me...if i dont give in tonight that is.

man i am so tired at the moment...haha, could be coz its bloody 3am!!! shit, i didnt realise it was that late. damn all insomnia...i think its gone, and the the bugger ambushes me just when im getting tired. consequently im tired as fuck, but not sleepy at all. arghhhh!

damn damn damn and to cap it all off, im having hugely horrible flashbacks. go to the sexual abuse section if you want to read about the contents of my flashbacks...i cant handle writing about that now, im going to see how i feel after i try and beat my insomnia into submission for a few hours. wish me luck with that. it will take some doing lol.
so will fighting the flashbacks away so i can get some sleep. *sigh* otherwise i'll just have to try and sleep through the fear and pain filled dreams.

anyways...i bid you all (if any) goodnight