repangel911's Journal

My friend Lynn had called CBN...the Christian Broadcasting network, and had their prayer partners pray for me. Well, she called me and told me that they had called her back twice and they were asking for more info. So she told me what she told them. She didn't get all the info exactly right, so I turned it on this morning, and the the pastor asked if you have had a miracle in your life, please call in and share it. So I did. The young lady I talked to her asked me a bunch of questions, and i tried to explain the errors in my friends report, and then she asked if I would authorize them to tell my story. I said sure. Do whatever gives God the glory. So who knows everyone may be able to see me on national tv. I will do whatever I can to give testimony to the awesome power of God. I know I have been gently cradled in His hands and that even someone as small and unimportant as I am is important to God! What a magnificent heavenly Father we have! I have felt my whole life the lonliness of not having a Mom who could love me,  a fact made so much worse by the fact that she admitted hating me.  SHe hated that she felt my Dad loved me more than her. How sad to have a prescious child as a gift from God and then hating the child over jealousy. I was only 18 months old when it started, so it is all I ever remember. I tried to explain to her a few years ago that Dad didn't love me like a wife but as his child, and didn't she see the sickness of hating your own child over something so sick? I asked her why if she felt that way why then she didn't hate him. She said she couldn't. I really feel sorry for her and continue to keep her salvation in my prayers. Only God knows how to deal with that one and I don't feel bad anymore, because I have the best heavenly Father in the universe. Who could ask for anything more? I am still going crazy trying to get everything done. I have been up all night working on a business plan for my new business. It is called Gems and Jewels by Design, a Christian Company. I plan on having home parties where I can teach people to design and make their own jewelry, and take it home on the same day as the party.  I pray that this idea takes off, and people enjoy this quick and easy craft and get a break from the worries of life. Anyways, just trying to keep up with that and get my book finished, and I am going to try and sell essentially eerything I own, because I have learned that the more stuff you have..the more you have to take care of and I just don't have the steam to take care of it. So I will try and keep everyone posted as to how each of these areas seems to be progressing. So far so good. I also have some doctors appointments coming up and a dentist appointment is badly needed. That is one of the reasons  I am not sleeping very well. I have two teeth that need to be pulled, so until I get that done, sleep does not come easily. I have applied for some help, and hopefully that will come through because I simply can't afford anymore. I just got the bill for my recent trip and my share is going to end up being $2800. Well, I will either just make payments, or  God will provide a way for me to take care of things. That is one reason that I need one of these projects to happen with remarkable speed. Lord, I am asking once again for your help and guidance, in Jesus precious name I pray. I also pray for my friends and their families, that they see personally miracles similar to the ones I have received. amen