guy294's Journal

What the fuck is wrong with me. I cut the same place on my arm until the skin split and nothing came out.Is there nothing in me? Why wont any thing come out.I must be insane doing the same thing expecting different results.It's  always the same.I can't change. I can't stand fucking life. I have nothing to give. i have proven it i don't bleed i don't think right. i can't do any thing right. I tell myself all the right thing's but still do the wrong things.People have given me so much and i don't except it.Why won't i except things that are given to me?I must be a freak,assshole,low life,dume shit,fucking loser.I hate my life it sucks.I have friends who talk to me yet i don't listen to them It's 12:30 and I am alone. that must be the way my life is meant to be. Why can't i accept it?I wanted to slit my wrist tonight but i can't not that i don't want to i just can't do it to the people around me.Every body else deserves better than me.I don't think i belong here.My friends tell me the right things to say to myself they talk to me. they help me. I feel like i wast there time.Fuck this is so hard to take.I just want the world to stop so i can get off.Why can't i even say im _k with myself. I don't like the person i see in the mirror.     I JUST WANT TO FUCKING QUIT.People always try to help me. I must be broken.I can't even think strate.Ifeel so lost and confused.I don't know who i am where i am or what i am Please some one turn off the lights and let me go to sleep.