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To all the people here at DS. I am not worthy of your friendship. I know i don't deserve any thing good. I know i am a bad,broken and no good piece of shit. I am sorry for not being a good person. Every body else here deserves the best things life has to offer them. Maybe some day if i can be called human being i will come back and ask for your forgiveness. Please forgive me.
Good bye....good..luck....love..you
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Last night i cut for the first time in a while. I don't remember how long it has been. but it helped me get some good sleep. Today is not to bad better than what they have been for a while. I think it was from the cutting last night. I now this isn't the right way to cope with life but for right now it is the only way for me.
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How are you now? I hope you're looking after yourself by keeping the wound nice and clean. Take care of yourself.
I just don't know what to do. If i'm not thinking about cutting i have to think about drinking so i don't cut. Then there's the demon in my head. I am losing it. I have so much to do i can't seem to get any thing done. I try to keep up with the house work then i miss my doctors appointment. I try to keep up with my email then i miss making the phone calls i am suppose to make. I need some one to be with. I need some one to help me. I just have all these things in my head going on that i can't stop. I have these really sick thoughts in my head and no one to talk to about them. I know i have friends here that will talk to me its just some times there's no one here when i need to talk about them. Like now. But its i just don't know what to say any way. I think i need to cut tonight.
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I wonder whether there's some kind of online check-list you could keep of things you need to do. Perhaps you could make up a list in your DS Journal, keeping it strictly for your eyes only. If you made up a list last thing in the evening and then checked it every couple of hours during the day, it would be a start. (btw - I'm always behind with the housework so I can empathise with you there.)
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I am sorry you feel that way, You certainly arent a no good piece of shit. You are just having a difficult time right now. Please dont give up...xx
fi29
you are not a piece of shit and you ARE worthy of our friendship. I highly doubt you are bad and broken.
I hope you do come back!
HUGS
Tonya
stargazer673
dont ask for forgiveness, you have done nothing wrong. you ARE a good caring soul or you wouldnt be here...i know how you feel though, but trying to change our negative outlook on life has to be something we both need to work on. there is good all around us, we need to see and recognize it for what it really is, not what we are perceiving it to be. the negativity will only continue to bring us further down into that hell-hole. we may be broken, but we can be fixed if we do the right things to achieve what we need and want - TO JUST FEEL NORMAL!
take care of you, your a good person who is human with feelings...
your a wonderful soul...
mistybay
What do you mean 'Good Bye'? I'm glad I managed to log into your profile, as that means you haven't gone yet so please don't go. I agree with everything mistybay says so try and take it all in. Many people go through the tunnel you're going through and come out the other end.
tattyhead184
DON'T YOU SAY THOSE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF...THEY ARE NOT TRUE..YOU ARE JUST HAVING A BAD MONTH DAY OR WHATEVER..COME ON HANG IN THERE..I AM HERE FOR YOU..I ALWAYS WILL BE..I THINK YOUR A GREAT GUY WHAT I KNOW ABOUT YOU...SO SNAP OUT OF IT..TRY YOUR DAMNEST..DON'T LET THESE FEELING RULE YOU..FIGHT THEM...LUV YA JESSEOX
JesseMM