jax1991's Journal

so me and phil talked last night or so..we're staying together. the thing is i'm not sexually attracted to him...at all. so if we were to get married, which we have talked about for the future (at least ten years) that would be a problem. 

why is it that we as humans always want what we can't have?!?! 

i want my psychiatrist yet i can never have  him......i think maybe if did have a chance with him i wouldn't want him. and whats up with me and older guys?!?!?! my psychiatrist is 28 years older than me. he's a year older than my dad. i would like to know more about him but i can't ask my therapist to many questions cuz then she'll put 2 and 2 together..(they're offices are right next to each other and he's the only psychiatrist in the office). today i asked if he was the only psychiatrist in the office ( there are many doors, so i was curious) and she said "no, he's the only one. why did u want to switch psychiatrists?" HA! of course not. i adore my psychiatrist and the low-cut tops don't seem to be doing the trick. apparently he has ALOT of patients......i need to make myself stand out!!!!!!!!! ugh i need a life...

anyways i did do some school. but i really need to go to public school next year. mom came over around 1030....she really should be over at 9. i WOULD get up at a good time if i knew mom would be here so we could do school.

nothing else i new. i may be getting my permit this week.