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Friday, May 9, 2008 | A Frustrating story

ok, so they're are 2 main public schools in my town (that i know of) theres one thats closer, which i want to go to. but it doesn't have a good reputation. i do know one person there, and with gas prices, i'll go to the closer one with vocational classes in health care (i want to be a doctor). so the closer one is good for me. but the other one is a bit farther away, with i think not a good reptation...but mom seems to like it. so SHE wants me to go to that one. and to make matters worse, 2 childhood friends go there. i'm trying to start new. we'd be in the same grade. i haven't seen one of them in years and the other one is only nice to see once in awhile. i'm kinda trying to reinvent myself. NOT stray from who i am, but not make the same mistakes as i did when i went to the private school. i really don't give a d@mn about seeing one of them. i haven't talked to that one in years. the other i guess would be ok, he has my best friend when we were like 5 years old until i was around 8.

no more distractions. i don't need reminders. i need to go somewhere where no body knows my name. i have a little more wisdom and knowledge about people my age than when i started the 9th grade.

mom would say "you probly won't even be in the same classes seeing how it's a big school" ha! with my luck we'll be in every class together. and the one i don't wanna see is on the football team. he'll be in a higher social class than me. because of that i'll have to hear people talking about him and all that B.S. i don't wanna deal with him!

it would be a load off my mind if i just went somewhere without people that i have a history with. i've been praying and wanting another chance....but if i go to the school my mom wants i might as well not get it.

i'll use the gas prices as an excuse........ cuz i need to start a new!
CUZ IF SHE GETS TO PICK THE SCHOOL I GO TO I'M REALLY SCREWED. plus i'm not gunna want to spend money on gas getting there every day to school!

since i do live profoundly closer to the school i want to go to, i might be complaining for nothing cuz i live in this disctrict. please please...i need things to go my way. for once!