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Thursday, May 1, 2008 | A Sad story

i'm still very hurt from yesterday. she said she wasn't angry at me, but angry at the situation. but when david walked threw the door she was all nice to him. and she kept saying "You think i'm stupid, right?" and i would say no and she would tell me not to interupt her sentence. it was hard to get to sleep i had so much stuff swirling around my mind. i'm sad and wish things were different. i am definitely her least favorite child. if she really loved me, she wouldn't have treated me that way. i'm beginnning to think my therapist is right, maybe i should bring my mom in with me. things can't get worse, right?

she expects us to treat her with all the respect in the world and not to yell at her and yet she yells at us. if she can't handle it than she shouldn't dish it out.

i hate living here. i kinda hope my shrink does lock my up......

i feel like i'm emotionally damaged goods. good parents wouldn't make their kids feel this way.

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I'll adopt you! I have three sons who treat me like garbage when I spent a lifetime creating all possibilites for them. I was their support network, neighborhood MOM to all their friends, the whole 9 yards. Take your MOm to therapy if she'll agree to go, so you two can interact in front of therapist and confront the demons that keep you from an "Authentic mother/child relationship". Maybe she has internal issues from her past she is reliving with you and needs help formulating the misdirection of love and re-constructing the face value of the both of you. Being sent away is not always the answer. Can you live temporarily with another family member. Make space between you as they say.

Heckster
all my family members live far away and they wouldn't take me in. my mom's side of the family would be just as worse as living with her.

i would love o be adopted me someone else....

jax1991