rcp78's Journal

Well, yesterday I got to see my daughter for the first time since the court hearing where I lost my parental rights.   It was hard cause all I could think of is, this is not my child anymore.   She is, but not legally anymore.   August 13, 2008 is the day my daughter will have her new family.  Her new mom and dad.   That is so hard to accept.  If the adoptive family wants to cut me out of my daughters life then they can.  That scares me so much.  I hope this does not happen.   My wife will be back from Texas on May 16, 2008 and I can't wait to see her.   It has been 16 days since I have seen her.  Other than that my day has been good so far.  Just lonely and bored.  Too much time to think about things by myself.   I have been doing a lot of watching tv, fishing, and spending time online with all of you.  That is about all I have been doing really.  My brother just had his 5th child.  He sent me some pictures of the baby, and it is so cute.   Anyway y'all keep cool and hang in there.  God bless friend.

Raymond C. Pickens III