Well, things are still hard for me friends. I have been dealing it with drinking since it had happen, but now I am bored of the drinking and starting to sober up. I realize my life will be forever changed by this and at some point I will have to face it. I just do not know if I am ready to face and accept the loss of my child. I thank all of you friends that are there for me in my time of need. I feel an emptiness inside and I don't know how to handle it. Life sucks friends. The hard part is there are feelings that I do not understand involving all of it. I have so many questions for god. The main one is Why? anyways I am not doing so well friends yet. y'all keep cool and god bless you all.