rcp78's Journal

Well, things here suck.  I miss my daughter, and wife.   I don't know why my life was meant to be so forsaken and filled with so much loneliness and pain.   I am having one of my lows with my depression and just feel like thing were meant to be so messed up in my life.    I can't do anything right in my life.   I feel like I would be better if I had never been born sometimes.   I am getting lost with in myself and closing off and going numb inside.   If god has a purpose for me I would really like to know what the hell that would be.   Because even when I think things could not get any worse "well it does".   Is this the case of shit happens or am I meant to suffer all my days here on earth.   What did I do to deserve the way my life has been and is going right now?  I just don't understand.   The government takes my daughter cause of my mental health needs saying "my mental health is unstable and because of that I can not take care of my child".   Well I say that is fucked up in every way.   The government can just go to hell and I hope they all rot therein they worse kind of hell.    As far as my wife goes well all I can do is everything in my power to work things out with her.   I think thing between us are geting a little better with time and I do hope things can be worked out between us.   You know what they say "What does not kill you will only make you stronger".  I hope someday for me that will be true.   Well y'all keep cool and hang in there.   I know I will try to here....lol....