It's Monday and I found out …
It's Monday and I found out friday that we are not going to do our IUI like we had planned and I was looking so …
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i am sad and mad and frustrated. i dont understand why this keeps not happening. i as very mad yesterday and had my breakdown for the month (i hope it will be the only one). dh is upset as well and he said to me yesterday that he is sorry he can't give me the one thing i want the most, a baby. that of course broke my heart. i feel a lot like quitting and just saying to hell with all this, but i want this SO much that i cannot have that me an option. i am willing to give the IUI thing three cycles. after three cycles i think i will need a break. i just wish i knew why? why don't i get pregnant? its been over a year since our last mc....so shouldn't i be pregnant by now? this just plain and simply sucks. its unfair and horrible to feel like this month after month.
so Monday i will go into RE's office in the am and get the baseline numbers and hopefully we will start gonal-f monday evening. here we go again....wish me luck again.
xo
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I know you feel like it is hopeless...try not to fall apart. I went 10 years without conceiving and when I did find out i was pregnant there was already a heart beat. Your husband is as frustrated as you are and I promise you he feels less of a man due to the fact it is so hard for you to get pregnant. I am here for you. Just hollar at me but until then I will keep you in my prayers...
Fredsniece
Good luck!
Bfriend09
I'm so sorry hon. I was really excited to hear about a BFP!! I know just how disappointing this is, and how devastating it is to see AF month after month of trying. I know how it feels to feel broken. I'm just so sorry you are going through this. . .I also know that real, physical longing to carry a baby and hold him/her in your arms at the end. . .I wish I could give you a real hug and take it all away. I'm here for you hon. This sucks. xoxo Beth
wolfemom
Beautiful girl, there is really nothing i can say to make you feel better. I am thinking of you! You deserve a little miracle. You are such a lovely person and you will be a wonderful Mommy. Hang in there Hun.
want2bamummy
Oh and i forgot to say, if you are going to have a breakdown, make it a spectacular one. Throw yourself on the bed and kick and scream and cry till you have nothing left!!
want2bamummy
Oh Jen, I'm so sorry:( I really thought you'd be getting a BFP.....and you will, just not this time I guess. It does SUCK, I know how you feel and ask myself the SAME questions over and over "why can't I get pregnant, why did this happen to me (when all my friends and family had no problems), what is wrong with my body (as its ME, not my hubby)......and these questions get me so down, sad and depressed which makes me have my breakdowns....so then I TRY and think positive, even if I want to cry and cry and cry....I think "this is the path that was chosen for us so I must accept it and move on", I want a baby more then anything in the world too so I keep thinkin this, as hard as some days are.....Someday we will be able to look at our baby(s) and tell them how MUCH we wanted them and what we did to get them:) That always brings a smile and happy tears to my eyes, I cant wait for him/her to know what we did to get them.
I hope your day gets better, please write me this week so we can chat OK!
Feel better,
Mandy
Faith09
thank you all so very much for being so kind to me. i am doing much better today. i am over being sad about this i am ready for the next round. again thank you all so very much!!
xo
JenO4
I"m sorry to hear you're feeling so down. I know there's nothing I can really say because I know how it feels when people say "just try to relax" or "stay positive". You just want to smack them! lol. But seriously though, if it's something you want just stay focused on the next round. I had my breakdown about a week ago b/c of AF, but my husband said something to make me feel better... he said that the doctor's like to start out with milder treatment and work their way up, and that is what's happening. After a certain # of tries, maybe they'll increase your dose or change your treatment. NOt every treatment works for everyone, just hand in there until you find one that does! :-)
LucyQ
Im so sorry to hear you are not feeling so great. I know how overwhelming this can be and sometimes I feel hopeless as well. Dont give up, eventually it will be your time! best of luck to you...
bcgradgirl
I hope each day continues to fill you with hope for your next pregnancy. Thinking of you and wishing you the best!
Deann3