kluvswt's Journal

i was too hung over to go to church this morning. I went gambling and drinking last night then i came home and drank some more and then took tylenol pm and went to bed. i am disgusted with myself. i looked up Bible verses about alcohol and wrote them down and taped them to my mirror. i have prayed and prayed for God to take away my desire. and can u believe i am sitting here now thinking about those 6 beers in the fridge... wanting to drink them so bad.. knowing i should pour them out, but not doing it.

i believe in eternal life with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I know the bible says drunkards with not inherit the kingdom of God. I love going to Church and worshiping and serving my Lord..

so WHY OH WHY???????????????????????

does this devil's brew have such a hold over me? why do I keep doing this knowing it will keep me out of heaven? knowing i can't do God's work or help His children???