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are u only an acholic when u got to bars or neglect your family? i enjoy beers in the evenings.. then i take my sleep pill, eat and go to bed.
someone once told me, here on this site, that i was way too hard on myself if i only drank at home and did not shuck my responsibileties.
but then i think, if am i useless to who made need me while i am at home enjoying my beers it puts guilt in my soul.
i was raised by the super queen of guilt trips, so any enjoyment i get out of life makes me feel guilty, tho most of the time i can overcome that and be healthy. but when it comes to beer, i feel as if i have done wrong even tho i enjoy it. Do I truly have a problem or does raising make me feel as if all i do that is fun is wrong.
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i am just so sick of doing so good and then failing sooooo badly.. sometimes i start to get really mad at my husband.. he knows i want to quit all these bad, sinful habits, but he continues to do them in front of me and encourages me to gamble..
he says he don't have a problem with any of the things i want out of our lives..
and i know that i kinow that he loves me, he is just stuck in addicts denial...
i am stuck in addicts hell.. knowing smoking, gambling and drinking is just wrong for soooo many reasons, but still let these things have power over me..
God Help us!!
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I know how you feel. When I was trying to quit smoking and drinking, my ex would insist on going to places where that's all they did. At least you are not in denial. big Hugs.
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You can only live your life, not your husbands. If you want to quit these things bad enough, you can! You cannot quit for your husband. These changes you want to make are to better YOUR life. You can do it for yourself. Hugs to you! Sandie
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You can do this. One day at a time. This is your journey and your life. Don't let your hubands actions dictate yours. I wish you all the best. 24 hours is all you need. Hugs Suzi
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That is your strength...you can do something about it. Keep fighting to stay GF and alcohol free. You can provide the example and maybe he will see the light. I hope the best for you. I know you are torn between staying in recovery and keeping a marriage together, but just imagine how much worse it would make it if you continued to gamble, drink and smoke. Keep fighting. I'll pray for you and your husband.
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i am not good today. man, just a couple of days ago life couldn't get better. then bam bam bam.. tragedy strikes.. jobs get put in danger, and habits rear their ugly heads. my friend lost her husband to a freak accident thursday nite and it shook me to my core, questioning .. and giref..my husband is gonna have to lay people off at his work place and that has him tor up, i drank 8 beers last nite, did not sleep good at all.. hung over this morning.. cried and cried and cried..
we went gambling last nite.. hubby said he needed a stress break.. any reason is a good one right?? so after bills we are already into next weeks paycheck.. so we spent 160.00. i won 250.00, we came home with 10.00 it is crazy...
how we can swear off of things, me beer, him & me gambling and then just go right back to it.. without a thought. dear God help us...
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Meh, a couple of beers in the evening isn't a problem UNLESS it's EVERY evening and you can't relax without them. And YOU KNOW!!! Personally, I never hit ROCK bottom either but when I started to ask myself IF I had a problem is when I SHOULD have quit. But I pushed the envelope until a friend pointed out she thought I had a problem. I think on some level you KNOW that it's a problem. Do yourself a favour and skip the "rock bottom" part.
Soxrox
Oh yeah, alcoholism is a PROGRESSIVE disease, so it only gets worse, NEVER better.
Soxrox