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Journal Entry for January 12, 2008 Mood

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Well here I am back for support if anyone still reads my journal!!! Went to the movie tonight and saw "ATONEMENT" Other than being heart wrenching and depressing, they smoked non stop in the film( Of course thats what they did in the late 30's early 40's) I WAS TRIGGERED BIG TIME. I have been tearful all evening. I MISS MY CIGARETTES. GOD willing and my footwork I won't smoke tonight. And I pray I don't eat everything in sight tonight. I hate this disease!!!!!!! So I need to remember all my reasons for quiting a year ago and how hard it was in those early days. SMOKING IS NOT AN OPTION and I don't need one until I smoke one. I have enjoyed the FREEDOM from the bondage of cigarettes............................................

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Of course we still read your journals silly! I totally understand what you are both saying and feeling. It is so glamorized and they do it so dramatically that it is brutal to watch. Don't cry though sweetie. Remember it stinks, tastes like crap most of the time, is expensive and now days it is almost an effort to find any place to have one. If you eat to get over this hump tonight, just grab something that isn't too bad. I'd rather see you eat and then go for a walk tomorrow then back to smoking. The bad part is we forget how horrifically hard it was those first weeks when we stop and it is proven than when you go back to smoking, drinking, etc. you do it more than you did when you quit. I love you - remember that freedom!!!!!

feliciac
Thank you for the warning! I quit Sept 25th, and have been really craving a smoke. Probably because I smoked one yesterday. Agghhhh! I didn't finish all my Chantix, so am starting it again tomorrow! I won't see that movie anytime soon. Good luck, Sandy! Hugs, Joan

joaneh
Hi Sandy. I know what you mean about the smoking in the movies. In the 60's all my friends smoked along with everyone else. Even in the markets and banks. Today is 10 months for me and I know at times I still would like one but I wont give in. We have come so far. This is a terrible disease and they really do get you hooked. So sad. Hang in there my friend. It's not worth it. Love, Irish

irisheyes3
Those people back in the 30s and 40s were being told that smoking was actually a bit good for them, good for controlling weight, good for calming....what baloney. Good thing you know better and will keep telling yourself the truth till it sinks in. It does finally, give it time. I am getting there. Keep right on hanging on! Huge Hugs Karen

littlewren
you only think you want a cigarette because you smoked for so long, but you don't really want one, grab some celery or a yogurt out of the fridge and enjoy, and when you go for a walk think i won again and i am so happy about it,

cazsy
Sandy, I actually bought a pack and gave it away in a moment of weakness as I have been feeling a little stressed. I am so glad I had the strength not to open it so the year does count for something. The mind is an amazing protector. Bye for now.

Wendy1475