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Monday, June 2, 2008

I have not been able to access my journal so sent a message to Doug, see what happens this time. Feel extraordinarly sad and lenely and miss the loving contact with my now ex in California. We are writing as 'friends' but I miss the 'I love you's' and such, we all want to be loved and needed and life is so difficult when we have neither in our lives, although I have my wonderful companion Gwinny who loves and needs me as do I her, I am very lucky to have her.

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others as well are having the same trouble with accessing journals.it is frustrating
i am glad you have gwinny.i know she will help you move through this difficult time....wish you all the best

jannis
I've been having problems with my journal too Marg..
I do know what you're going through with your ex..
I am going through the same thing here..I am thinking
of you..xoxoxox

bathsheba
I am sorry you are feeling this way Marg, you don't deserve this. It isnt' the same but I love you and I know many more here do too. Be strong. Gwinny is a gem that will always love you unconditionally. Blessings and prayers.
mary xo

Snuffles
Gwinny is lucky to have you too!! I know it can be depressing and lonely sometimes...I go thru that sometimes too. I really do care about you and I pray for you often!! Please take care and hang in there it is going to get better. I know the journals are a problem for lots of people .... me too!! I hope they get it fixd soon. Please take care and know that I love ya!!
ruth

myall4Him
Yes we all certainly need to be loved and love, life is so tough at times. glad you have Gwinny, and I have Minky.
love, jazzy

fantail
It looks to me like you have much love right here on DS.
Trust that this is right for your life plan.
Gwinny is wonderful.
However, you do deserve the very best life has to offer.
It would be nice for you to have someone that lives close to you, so you could talk and spend time together and give eachother lots of hugs.
Wish upon a star, Marg.
If you love something, set if free.
If is comes back to you, it is yours.
If it does not, if was never meant to be.
I spent almost a year trying to talk a long distance love to come back in my life. He was volatile and awful to me and left me when I became ill.
I am not saying your friend is not a good guy, but this one was.
He treated me poorly, but also gave me what I identified as love. Not having that in my life anymore, seemed to almost destroy me.
I was desparate.
He might have come back, if I had begged him longer.
It took me a another year or so to work on me and to accept the pain of the loss.
Now, I am so damned grateful he is gone and stayed gone.
I had to get to the other side of it before I could see that he was not the right man for me.
In cementing myself to him, I would have lost out on all the wondrous experiences I have had since him.
Trust, Marg. God is working in your life.
Consider playing a game in your mind.
Imagine yourself gleefully happy, dancing through the meadows with Gwinny.
Now add someone wonderful dancing with you.
Envision and envelope yourself in the brilliance of self love and the love from another.
Imagine pure happiness, peace and contentment.
The more you do it, well...you just never know what good things like has in store for you.
It will get easier.
One day at a time.

GoodGod
Sorry & miss you.
xo

moonstar