Journal Entry for February 21, 2008
February 21, 2008 9:32am
Everything's pretty much going to shit.Though I have to say, I'm very impressed by just HOW MUCH things are going wrong.Last night I had sex …
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About Me
I'm a 16 year old girl, and I'm just trying to recover from a suicide attempt and years of self-harm, I'm hoping that this site could offer the understanding which is so lacking :) (Also- I'm bi, but haven't told anyone, hope I might actually talk about it here!)
Interests
I'm really into human rights, reading, philosphy and english. And yes I am kind of a geek when it comes to school! Also love shopping (I'm a teenage girl so duh) and writing and playing my own music.
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Journal Entry for November 27, 2007
November 27, 2007 12:18pm
Exam Results!!!Just got back my results from my first exams in IB (internal) and here are the results...highers-english, 6history, 6biology, …
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Journal Entry for November 4, 2007
November 4, 2007 11:10am
Realised I hadn't written in a while/done any hugs and I'm sorry for that but school takes over a lot of my life and any spare time is spent …
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Close Self-Injury
well, I started cutting when I was about 11, only scrathes really because I didn't know what I was doing, and then I just did it on and off for a long while until I was 13 when people found out, that's when I did other things like hitting myself so they wouldn't see scars. I ended up in hospital with an overdose a few weeks ago, and my parents found out about everything, so now they've taken away my scissors, so i'm having 2 make do with burning. I hate it.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Got sent to these NHS shrinks after the overdose, they're nice enough but all they do is listen and I talk, not sure how it's going to help really.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- The therapist says she's going to start me off on this- I'm a bit cynical to be honest
- Family Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- God knows what good this is going to do, my family don't talk about feelings, it's just going to be us sitting in silence
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Only helps when I talk to other people who self-harm, others just freak out
- Writing Working / Worked
- Helps if I'm not too bad
Close Panic Attacks
Had panic attacks since I started cutting and starving myself, the first time I thought I was going to die, now even though I understand them they're horrible to go through.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
Open Kidney Stones
Had kidney stones in the Autumn/Winter of last year. First one took about 2 weeks to diagnose after the first renal colic, then I had a ureteroscopy (spl?), and then after 3 weeks when the pain wasn't any better- it turned out they'd left one in there! lol, had to have another operation and another hospital stay. Followed by 5 prescribed painkillers and major sleepin pills because I hadn't sleep. I missed so much school during my GCSE year that I'm not sure if I'm going to get good ones
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Too Soon to Tell
- Surgery Working / Worked
- Codeine Not Working
- didnt do a thing!
- Restoril Not Working
- took enough 2 knock out a horse, again, nothing
- Voltaren Somewhat Helpful
- helped a bit but not strong enough
Open Teen Sexuality
Basically I started having sex etc too young, and have kept that up. Now I've started to tell people I'm bi after my bf of 2 years dumped me, all a bit crazy really
Open Insomnia
basketcaseClare hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Alcoholism
Ever since I first tried it couldn't get enough of it. Never socially drink, it's usually by myself. Never really thought it was a problem still I started bringing it into school and getting drunk there. I've never spoken about it to anyone- not even the shrinks so I hope I can get the courage to do it here
Open Eating Disorders
Was a fat kid and so when I was 11 started 2 make myself better. Much better now but still binge and purge, and I'm pretty scared of food- it took me and hour the other day to eat a slice of toast because it panicked me so much and I've no idea why!
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
Open Bisexuality
yeah..what the title says lol
Open Meningitis
basketcaseClare hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)Diagnosed with BPD
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
Open High School Stress
Go to the highest ranking school in Britain, stress galore really.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Most of my friends are in the same boat as me and we try to help each other but are too stressed most of the time, people who don't go to my school just don't understand
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
My aunt threw herself off a building.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
started just over 6 months ago, getting way too dependant on them
Open Teen Anxiety
panic attacks, lots of stress because of IB
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
Well, I'm not sure if I'm "addicted" to sex, but I have it a lot, and it feels like I need to, and it doesn't matter who with. Want to start talking about it and maybe find others like me
Treatments
- Talking Not Working
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basketcaseClare hasn’t been active on the site in a while. Why not give basketcaseClare a hug?
