dede's Journal

HI DEAR FRIENDS, I WANT TO SAY HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE FEELING GOOD, BUT I KNOW BETTER THAN TO SAY THAT.  EACH DAY IS SO DIFFERENT. UP ONE DAY DOWN THE NEXT. PAIN IS A HARD SUBJECT FOR ME TO DISCUSS. I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO THINK I COMPLAIN ALL THE TIME. BUT I DO HAVE TO CONFESS SOMETHING. WHEN I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN I FELL SO FAR FROM GOD. I EVEN WONDER IS ANYBODY THERE FOR ME. I DON'T WANT PAIN TO RULE MY LIFE. IT'S A EVER DAY BATTLE TRYING TO DEAL WITH PAIN. SO HERE I AM ON DS TRYING TO ENCOURAGE MY FRIENDS. I HAVE REALIZED AT TIMES I TAKE MY EYES OFF OF GOD. I'M REALLY WORKING ON THAT. HE ALWAYS LETS ME KNOW WHEN I'M DOING WRONG.  I WANT ALL OF YOU TO KNOW I CARE ABOUT YOU. THAT'S HOW I MAKE IT. HAVING FRIENDS LIKE YOU AND GOD. ALL KNOWS WHAT CHRONIC PAIN IS. THAT MAKES A CLOSE BOND. SO FRIENDS GOD KEEP ME IN LINE SO I CAN PRAY FOR YOU. HE ALWAYS HOLDS MY HAND AND PULLS ME OUT. I HERE FOR YOU AND ALWAYS WILL BE. YOU ARE MY FRIENDS. LOVE DEDE