meranda7789's Journal

as i lay there with tears running down my eyes, you lie beside me with unbareable silence. as the days go onto weeks, that go onto months, then onto years. i wonder if this is the begining of my life? how i wish i could just change the wrongs in my life. as i follow into my mothers foot steps.. an exact definition of a mistake. i pray that the lord will have mercy on my daughter. that she will never have to feel heart ache. that she will never experience REAL PAIN. that she will be able to live. i hope that she will understand the life that i live. i hope she knows how much i truly wish i was a better person for her. i want her to know that u cant wait for someone to save you! you have to save yourself. i know i have made my mistakes. and ive never had an easy life. i know i faught enough battles. i know that i have been ten times stronger than anyone else i know. i know that i am not perfect. i know that my mistakes will haunt me for the rest of my life. i know that i will never be truly satisfied with my life.. i have learned to except this as a life... 

but i plea with the lord above.. that he'll let her have everything that i had to live with out.. i plea with him to let her have a life that she deserves..