Mia34's Journal

2:06pm

Still struggling with my eating disorder. I try to tell myself it is all in my mind. I'm not strong right now. I feel weak. That doesn't mean that I am bingeing and purging because I am not. As much as I hate to say it, I need to gain weight and that scares me. There is a show I watch every Monday night called Intervention. There was a young woman on there with bulimia. It was hard to watch but the show helps me to never go back to bulimia. I still have issues with food. Instead of looking at food as good, it seems to be my food guy. Growing up I couldn't control all the anger, saddness , and fear in my life. Now I feel the only thing I can control is my weight.