Aida2000’s Profile

Open Sex / Pornography Addiction

I want sex everyday but can't get it from my husband right now cause he doesn't get turned on by my fatness, so it is hard to be faithful, but i'm trying. i love porn but it's not the same.

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

I was told I have BPD last year and I am now trying to learn more about it. My impulses is drinking, pill poping,and shopping. I know it's not healthy but when I get stressed I can't help but feel the urge. i also see everything in only black or white(good or bad), have identity issues, & fear of being abandoned by people close to me.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

helps me learn more about my symtoms & how to cope w/ it.

Talking Working / Worked

Open ADHD / ADD

i was diagnosed with add since i was 3 and been trying to deal with it ever since.

Open Anxiety

have had anxiety since my mother died in 2000.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

i have been in ea for a year and it keeps me alive.

Open Codependency

i always feel like I have to be with someone, whether it's with a friend or my husband or I feel like they're gone forever! I'm married to a Emotionally abusive husband who likes control. I feel like I rather be dead then end up leaving him. I have mixed up feelings about him, I love him deeply & also hate him too.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

Been going for a year & a half. I learned about the word codependency there for the first time.

Music Somewhat Helpful

it helps me calm down

Talking Working / Worked

I like talking to people and it helps to vent it all out.

\"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked

Open Food Allergies

i am allertic to coconut. very deadly!!!

Open Healthy Sex

i waited till i was 18 to have sex. im openmind to a lot of sexual related things.

Open Hypothyroidism

i found out i have a very low thyroid when i was 15. it's sooo hard to lose wieght and i stopped growing since 13. im 4'8" 175lbs

Treatments

Synthroid Working / Worked

it works if I remember to take it, & if I can afford it.

Open Panic Attacks

i get them weekly.especally when im scared or worrying.

Open Phobia

I have extreem Entomophobia(fear of insects) since i was 6 years old, won't be near any bugs or spiders. it's so bad i fear butterflies!! i know they don't attack me but thats why it's called a phobia right? I also have been scared of lightning for as long as I can remember. i cope with that by staying inside when it storms.

Treatments

Acceptance Too Soon to Tell

I'm working on it with therapy.

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

helps me know I'm not alone in having phobias. I just wish I knew someone who also has Entomophobia.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

after my mom died i lived with my dad who i never knew before and a stepmother. they abused and beat me for a year and i still suffer from it

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

a lot of tragic things happened to me. read my page to find out.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

been going for a year & a half. i love it cause it helps remind me that I'm not alone & that people care.

Music Working / Worked

calms me down if I get panic attacks.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

If helps if I vent it out or deal w/ my feelings w/ someone professinal.

Rape Counseling Working / Worked

I let out all my emotions w/ my therapist & we talk about how to deal w/ the expierence.

Open Rape

was raped by a 64 year old man in 2004 when i was 21. and now i fear older guys from 40+

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

been going for a year & a half, I'm not alone.

Rape Counseling Working / Worked

learning to cope w/ it

Open Self-Injury

i sometimes cut my face and arms with razorblades if im too angry or upset.

Treatments

Red Marker Not Working

I want to feel the pain, not look at it.

Rubber Bands Too Soon to Tell

when I'm upset, it's not enough physical pain to release the emotional.

Talking Working / Worked

It helps to talk to someone that cares about my safety.

Tattoos Considering

I have one that I designed myself, a tongue ring & 4 ear piercings. I'm thinking of designing another tattoo.

Open Obesity

I'm 4'8" and 178lbs. but my husband says I'm too fat for him.

Treatments

6 Week Body Makeover Considering

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

Gastric Bypass Surgery Considering

maybe when I get the money.

Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Considering

Physical Exercise Not Working

Slim-Fast Considering

Open Military Families

my husband just joined the u.s. army, august 2007

Open Homelessness

my story of my journey is WAY too long to type, so ask me about it & I'll tell you everything about my self.

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Anorexia

I'm obese, but have tried starving & purging since I was 14+ off & on. my therapist says I have the personality of an Anorexic, but I give up a lot due to listening to my friends worrying about me. It's soo hard to fight the urge to starve. I want to be thin again. I guess I'm what others would say a " Wanna be Anorexic".

Treatments

Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Considering

would i qualify for O.A.? or be told I don't have an ED?

Psychotherapy Not Working

My therapist has made threats time & again about sending me to a ED rehab center, but gave up saying " your going to do what you want to anyway.."

Support from Friends & Family Not Working

They don't understand my need to be thin or how I enjoy not eating.