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My day went well. I hope all of yours did too. Got to work on time. Both Andy and Cassandra were there …
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haven't written in a bit but decided to give a weekly synopsis.
Monday - Holiday, what else can you say! 
Tuesday - back to work, fairly productive, stayed home with my girls. i'm cooking all my daughter's favorite things for her last week at home.
wednesday - got called a "f---ing c--t" by one of the tenants when i called for rent. i remained cool and sent a pay or evict letter and will file in small claims for the rent. he will not put tire marks across my back! had to go to a lawyer the bank appointed to evict tenants from another rental so i can deed the house back to the bank. STBX does not care. he clearly states he wants nothing to do wtih the financial mess he left behind, this is why he left. he conveniently forgets that he bought these rentals, lost his job, sat in his lazyboy for six months (until unemployment ran out), took off with his last check and left me to deal with it all. i don't know the first thing about anything going on but i'm learning. It made me cry. 
thursday - went home after work to see that my 21 year old started packing for her move to Florida 1500 miles away on tuesday. reality set in and i realized how fractured this family and our lives have become. it made me cry. went out for girl's night with some friends and was to meet up with my new "special interest" but he just started a new job and never showed. had a panic attack and had to leave. first one in months. i felt rejected and it made me cry.
friday - daughter had to borrow 200 from me and somehow out of my pittance of a salary i was able to help her out. went to the courthouse to file the receipt that my STBX was served. he has 28 days to contest. it made me cry
i don't know how you can be going along so well and than BHAM...just like that. i will deal with everything as i always do anymore...one minute at a time. for some reason i have been thinking of my STBX these last few days and they have not been angry thoughts but very sad and melancholy thoughts for what used to be. i try not to do this because it makes me cry he always sounds drunk and he doesn't remember anything that has been said to him. he never drank like that 3 months ago when he walked out. i worry about him. i don't want to but i do. i still care and that makes me wanna cry 
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Hol, there will always be a piece of us that cares, it was 1/2 our lives in those relationships BUT the crying will stop - it turns more and more to pity for sad state they let thier lives stay - they have made these choices we have done EVERYTHING we can
Chris333
We cant help but still care about them. Even if we dont want them back in our lives, they were part of our lives for so many years we will always care about them in some way.
lilgost
Caring about someone is OK. HE will either fail or succeed in getting his life to gether. That is not your responsibility. Your life is the primary concern for you.
DrSue