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Thursday, August 14, 2008

Hi everyone,I'm really happy today.

Please ignore my stupid comments and posts when drunk,I'm cutting right down but still struggling giving up altogether.I was drunk last night on not even a full bottle of wine,maybe new meds but I still had a blackout!Cringing about posts and comments.Used to be able to drink a bottle of vodka,then cut it down to 2bottles of wine.Used to have threeday binges too.So things are getting better: )

Promise I wont come on here drunk again,I'm an ahole on drink.

Really loved up with the world today.Loving people too which is unusual.I hope I can keep this stable mood.I really need to get a job.

Hope you're all doing well.I'm here with loads of love to dish out when you need it xxxx

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Glad your doing so well! That's good news!

looloo
One day at a time missus... I hope the BF is spoiling you rotten and not driving you insane.... I'm glad you are feeling happier ((rubyblue))

DSRuby
how you act here isn't of any importantance, those of us that've known you for a while know full well what a kind heart you have - you being healthy and in control is!

i used to have the same demon, took total destruction of my life to build the resolve to kill it - hope it takes you much less. my best wishes in your efforts :)

*big warm silverback huggles*

cagedDreams
i'm glad you are happy....thanks for the update...just do the best you can, that's all any of us can do.....

hugs and love!

BeautyforAshes

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Much better now.Mood swing over : ) x Mood

Friday, August 1, 2008 | A General Update story

Just chatted to a friend on here and hugged a few lovelies,feel so much better.Might stick with prozac till can get new meds : ) Cannot get on some journals(friends locked ones)will try later xxxx

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awww who was that lol......always here for u hun love ya loads and ill see u soon xx

AFC08
That's good hun glad your feeling better!

looloo
Yea better to stick with, I stopped mine accidently and crashed a bit. Go enjoy those BF cuddles this weekend x

CM007
Just glad you are feeling better missus, its nice to see xx

rubyblue
Hey I opened one for you for a few days to friends and then locked it cause thought you were busy or on holidays..or maybe I am just dull..lol

mamaluv
glad you are feeling better! :)

leahanne

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Could trigger bunnies x Mood

Friday, August 1, 2008 | A General Update story

Lost it again last night.I am amazed I am not banned.I cannot handle what these youngsters are telling me about a certain woman(you sure it's a woman?)

I was sexually abused and this is a very raw touchy subject to me.

I'm wondering if I am being played.There are some vile nasty nasty people on here.

I cannot get my new meds yet.My bf is abducting me Sunday to help me stay away from drink and just to cuddle me everyday for a couple of weeks(he lives down south where I used to live)I really need that.I have hurt him so much in the past due to my mentalness.I was not ready to be loved,but he stuck with me and even took me back after we finished for a couple of years.I love him so much.I am the luckiest girl in the world.He's letting me take my cat too which helps as I wont have to lock her in alone and get friends to come feed her.She'll have me with her and she loves my bf too.I love you all too.And if I am banned in the meantime(I mean fairplay to that woman,I am assuming she did not report me and I did not report her so she must have some decency in her)Wish she would just be nice.I never EVER have called anyone ugly.But she kept saying I was ugly without even seeing my face.I'm no oil painting,and if I was,do you earn beauty?No we are born the way we are.

I am a good person and I am beautiful inside.I love animals,earth,insects,humans.Peace my friends.And if you nasty lady read.Peace to you too xxxx

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Some people can be, just hang in and ignore them hun. Hope you feel better soon. Love and hugs.

looloo
Goooo get yur luvin huni buni! ehehehehehe

SuyB
Loves you sweetie. Here for you xoxoxoxoxo

ScaredandScarred
hugs and u best visit lol when ur down be good to catch up love ya hun xx

AFC08
Block her- shes not worth it hon. Thats fab about your BF- and your puddy cat :) I notice a real change in your outlook about your Bf.

CM007
Oh Suse, just how lovely are you!! x

rubyblue
you are such a sweetheart!!! i'm glad you have a great guy like that...you deserve it! :)

leahanne