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I'm a 31 yr old single mom whom is a loyal, fun, understanding, big hearted person. My Biggest Joy is my son whom just turned 2 in October. He is my heart and heart beat. I love to sing but only to my son. When I was pregnant with him I would sing to him amd feel him move which to me was a sign not to stop. He still loves to hear me sing and he gives me kisses and applause when I'm done. I just love him.
Singing, dancing, Fishing, writing poetry, taking trips.
July 8, 2008 9:46pm
Hello To all my Friends,
I here at work and feeling pretty good. Sorry it's been so long. Kinda hard to respond with work...been busy …
March 20, 2008 1:48pm
I wnet to the Dr. to see what was going on with the pregnancy. One minute they telling me I MC then the next by blood count was high. I thought if I …
March 5, 2008 9:12pm
Hello Everyone whom may read.
Well today is my birthday and I'm not in the best of moods. I found out I was pregnant again on my Mom birthday …
January 18, 2008 12:17am
HEY eVERYONE,
Just wanted to let you all know I'm still here. I 've been working hard. I had to work from Christmas all the way through New …
October 5, 2007 7:43pm
Hello Everyone,
It's been a while since I been on. I'v been working like crazy trying to catch up on bills. Seem like the more I work the …
Hello I just joined this comm b/c I had my third m/c on 12-30. I'm very sad and confused on why this is happening. I feel drained emotionally and mentally if that makes since. Well, I had a D&C with my fisrt m/c and I did get preg three months after only to m/c again. I got preg in 2004 with my son whom Most of all I'm very Thankful for. He is now 2 and he made it through just fine. Hopefully when I go to the Dr they can tell me what's causing these m/c. I'm keeping my Faith.
Hello To all that may read I have been depressed for some time; since I was a teen. I tried to talk to family but no one had time made me feel like I had no reasons to be so I kept everything inside The only person I could talk to is/was God I have a 2yr son whom is the reason I'm holding on beause he is my life He can see my depression and I don't want him to see me like this I decided that I can't go through this by myself and I do need help this is one of the reasons I joined this community.
I don't know if this falls under Anxiety... I am a worrier, I worry so much until I make myself sick. I found out last year that I have high blood pres. My biggest fear is worrying something bad is going to happen to my son,boyfriend,mom and dad. I'm scared for them to be out of my sight. It's getting to the point where I get bad headaches and feel like I want to pass out b/c I worry so much and some of the things I worry about is out of my control. I'm hoping for advice and help on what I can do.
I've been shy all of my life When I go out in public I always feel ensecure/ashame I have many talents and one gift that I cherish is my Voice to sing I want to sing mostly in Church but afraid of being ridicule for what ever reason So many things I want to do but being shy has/is holding me back It's hard to look people in the eye when I talk b/c I'm afraid of what they're thinking I try not to worry and get pass this shyness b/c I'm older but it's just to hard and it's already marinated inside This has effected the way I communicate and live it's so much I could had/have but being too shy has really put a halt in my life. Anything dealing with not being in public or being seen I can work wonders I write poetry and have won prizes and had a chance to publish some but I did not follow threw beacuase of my shyness which I consider one of my biggest FEARS. I found that FEAR stands for False Evidence Appearing Real but no matter what I find or know it's still hard to overcome
I been stressed since I was albe to know what I was actually feeling. I stress about little things just as much as the big things. Stress has not just worn me down mentally /emotionally but physical as well. It is causing my hair to come out,my skin to break out and dark circles around my eyes.There also other bad habbits like smoking cigs and not eating properly. My sleeping habbits are not good and it's hard to rest and relax because it always something I have to worry and stress about. I don't know and understand how to block this out and just relax. It feels like I have to worry and stress b/c if I don't something will go wrong. Feeling this way has made my nerves bad along with having a bad temper and it messes with my pressure. Stressing/Worring has also cause me to have HBP and I didn't think it was serious until I read about. I'm just praying that I can learn how to relax and not worry/stress. I want to do what I need to do before it effects my health and it's to late.
I am a PROUD Mother of A 2yro Son Marcus, He is the Joy of my life and I am so Blessed to have him. Marcus is a very smart kid, At just a few weeks old he was already trying to lift and turn his head. Marcus came into the world smiling and looking around but the moment I remember most is how he stared into my eyes when I held him for the first time. He learning to count and say his ABC's I'm trying my best to tech him Advance things for kids his age. I buy him alot of things that talk and sing, basically educational stuff. He's trying to talk and repeats almost everything he hears so I have to be very careful what I say and do around him. The dicipline part is hard. I find myself giving in more than I should. I have a hard time when his Father dicsipline him becaue I want so much to take up for him when he does something wrong. Like one time Marcus was throwing things and knocked a picture down, his father told him to stop...well Marcus didn't like that so he ran and punched his dad in the stomach. My Marcus dad made him set in TIME OUT. My son cried and screamed and I just wanted to run to his rescue, He reached out his hand for me to get him but I knew I couldn't b/c he should not be hitting and definetly not me or his father....well I let him set for 2 mins and then I got up and went into the bedroom and becked for him to come. I know..I know... not a good thing but I'm learnig and I'm working on not giving in when he needs to understand and learn right from wrong.I know that's not good because when he does something he knows is not right he comes to me to keep from getting in trouble. So I'm trying to not be a sucker for the puppy dog tearful eyes.
I feel I have SA base on the facts I worry, get depressed and cry when I have to leave my son. I'm also scared to leave home sometimes with him. When I am out and about with my son I'm always parinoid,I have to make sure I have him protected so if anything goes wrong it would happen to me and not him. Leaving my son b/c I have to work is HARD.I work and I know I have to work to take care of us. When I'm not around he's always in GOOD HANDS but I still worry about him. I sometimes can't deal with the fact that I have to leave him. I know when he starts school I'll be a nervous wreck... In stead of him crying not wanting to leave me it would be the opposite. I thought about home schooling him but I know he needs to be around other indiviuals to laugh,play and make friends. I find it hard to focus at work thinking of him,I feel he needs me and I need to be where he is. I'm trying to work on this... Lord knows I don't want to push him away from being over protective as he gets older. I don't want to smother him with being over protective. This happen to me,I reacted in a bad way and sometimes rebeled. Since I'm older and have a child I understand and regret how I acted. I know I have to let him breathe and I'm willing to do that as he gets older. I know I can't protect him from life exsperiences I understand that, all I can do is Pray and ask God to guide my son steps in everyway...everyday.
