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Journal Entry for May 8, 2008 Mood

Thursday, May 8, 2008 | A Positive story

Today has been a beter day, i had to get up early, went to my husbands work saftey day.

I did take clonopin it took edge off anxiety, i wasn,t to uncomfortable around all the the other people.

I managed to get into my doctors tommorrow to iether up my paxil as on week 4 there is no improvement or to change to hopefuly something that will actually work!.

Yesterday i had a bizzare episode!, i had two target coupons as im not working right now i was looking forward to buying a smal birdbath with them but they didn,t haveany.

I tried to cash my cards wich they couldn,t and from nowhere my emotions just errupted, i cried in store, i creid on customer service line, i creid to my husband, i so badly wanted the birdbath so i could watch the birds outside as it is very peacefull for me.

I wasn,t having a tempertantrum, i justfelt heartbroken and cried uncontrolably.

Eventually i pulled myself together enough to go gym but i couldn,t make eye contact with anyone for fear of more tears.

I did do it and felt much better after work out.

So far today just the anxiety not any deppressive waves.

Does anyone elese have crying episodes like this when deppressed and anxiety?

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Could it possibly have been a side effect of the clonopin (Klonopin)? I remember being on an anticonvulsant called Keppra and the side effect of that were quite severe. I constantly felt like losing my temper and it only took a small trigger. I may be barking up the wrong tree but it's worth thinking about.
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tattyhead184
Try to calm yourself down.

thor7506
try and ground yourself. focus on your breathing until you are calm enough.

RSmith
That happens to me sometimes...but it is totally hormone related. Mostly around that time of the month for me. The meds I'm on now are really good. But I understand where you are coming from. You'd be surprised what triggers these things sometimes. Last weekend I was swimming with my honey, and we were having the BESt time. I was laughing so hard and just really happy, I started crying. Just crying so hard it was ridiculous. Just be very aware of what you are feeling at all time! I hope you are feeling much better today!

WhymZ
Oh, no. Well, there are other birdbaths out there. I'm with WhymZ. I do okay except about a week, a week & 1/2 before my period...oh man, it's like a complete alter ego. I get angry (I'm not an angry person), I cry at the drop of a hat, and sad memories and thoughts are flooding over me and trying to swallow me, like they did when I was at my worst-depressed. Occasionally, I'll have short episodes like this when something nasty happens...when I have my heart set on a certain thing, and someone rejects me, or thwarts my plans! So, yes, I think it can definitely happen and is part of our lives now. I try very hard to count to three and do my breathing (sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.). But I'm getting better prepared for when it does happen. I schedule my down time for those timeframes, and give myself as much slack as I am able.
Those mean target people hurting my sweet little dogcrazy. I'll go have a long talk with them! I used to work in retail, so I'll really give them a good lecture. Sometimes, you just run into nasty people, and that gets me going now, too. Were they nasty to you? 'Cause then I WILL go have a talk with them!

girlieB
aww love if you dont normally burst into tears like that then it must be the tablets, if youre reducing maybe thats why ? i dont know what to say really if you need to reduce them you just have to bear with it, the good thing is you stayed positive and still went to the gym when you feel bad. Can you not try if you feel upset, try to think of happy things that may cheer you up a bit X X

janeyjane
i have crying jags but i attribute them to menopause i just burst into tears over the strangest things mcate

mcate
Yes, I have been there and would look at my husband to make it better. He would say everything to try to make it better, but it really just didn't make sense to him. I soon realized I just needed a hug. That really helped me. I know that can be a quick fix, but it helped me in those situations. So now when I get like that I am quick to ask for a hug. Hope you are well.

Sarah07