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Journal Entry for October 15, 2007 Mood

Monday, October 15, 2007

Things have been crazy here for a couple of weeks. Both girls were so sick I had to stay home for three days last week. Then today the little one got sent home with a mystery rash. H stepped up and took the day off. Doctor says it is viral and no longer contagious.

H leaves for a business trip tomorrow for four days. This is the worst week for that as I have Parent/Teacher Conferences, the fundraiser and Student Council. I am going to be a juggling queen this week.

My thoughts keep straying to the time of year. It was this time last year he began his affair. I know he isn't but I can't stop obsessing about it.

Gotta go check the little one.

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It must be hard not to obsess! Once trust has been violated then it has to be rebuilt and thats hard! Good luck with the kids!

TiKibell
Yea, it's understandable that you would have it on your mind at the same time of year that it happened.
Just hang in there. I have a name for the anniversary of the night I caught my husband and my best friend. I call it Deathday. It is the day my marriage died. Although we are still together, it's not the same marriage we had before, and never will be.
Try to think happy thoughts and be happy for the positive steps you are taking in your life and marriage. It could have turned out much differently. God bless you.

stayingalive
Obsessing is what we do. I lost 2 hours last night to looking through her old emails. Nothing new (THANK GOD), but my point is that we all obsess. What exactly did I expect to find? How could it possibly change anything? And yet I do it anyways.

I think its like crying when someone has died. There's no rational reason to cry. But its what you have to do. To get it out. So its ok to obsess a little. Just don't let it take over.

deadinside