aXmillionXpieces's Journal

Everything happens all at once. Today has been such an off day and it just gets worse and worse and I don't know what to feel, what to say, what to do. My best friend called late tonight. She's in the hospital. She overdosed. She wanted me to call 2 of our friends. I did. One of them isn't really talking to her, they got in a fight. I don't know what's going on. I don't know how long she will be there and I can't see her b/c I'm 100s of miles away. I need to be there but I work all week. I don't even know if I can work tomorrow.

I was feeling so off today, like I couldn't do anything right at work and so insecure and worried. I was washing dishes and a glass broke and fell into the sink. I cut my hand on it. I may need to get stiches tomorrow. The worst was that after that, I was in pain but I felt better, like I used to after cutting. I haven't done that in months. It hurts and I scared myself. I just don't know what to do for her. I don't know what I can do.