Journal Entry for July 15, 2008
July 15, 2008 2:57am
I need space. Distance. Less heavy stuff. But how to say that? Saying that is easy it's how it's taken that's the hard part. My friend …
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aXmillionXpieces
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can't keep doing this anymore...I can't live with my parents and deal with all this shit at the same time.
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About Me
I have a tendency of surprising people as I rarely fit stereotypes. For example, my favorite movie is "Attack of the Killer Tomatoes" and I hate anything romantic. I am independent and stubborn to a fault and I can be very sarcastic. I see the world differently than most people. For me, it isn't black and white. I look at things from all perspectives. My personal view is that we should not do anything that will compromise ourselves because once you do that you can't go back. The thing is it is different for every person, hence the varying shades of gray that life is.
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can't keep doing this anymore...I can't live with my parents and deal with...…
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July 15
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aXmillionXpieces wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for July 15, 2008 2:57am
I need space. Distance. Less heavy stuff. But how to say that? Saying that is easy it's how it's…
July 11
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aXmillionXpieces changed their mood to OK 3:38pm
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aXmillionXpieces wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for July 11, 2008 3:38pm
I wish my family wasn't so complicated. I know that everyone has family problems. My mom's having…
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Journal Entry for July 11, 2008
July 11, 2008 3:38pm
I wish my family wasn't so complicated. I know that everyone has family problems. My mom's having a really hard time right now. I feel so …
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Journal Entry for June 25, 2008
June 25, 2008 9:11pm
Things are a bit better with my mother and I. Not really. We just move on and pretend everything's okay but under it all we are both hurt. She …
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I don't even know...
June 23, 2008 2:06am
Everything happens all at once. Today has been such an off day and it just gets worse and worse and I don't know what to feel, what to say, what …
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No, we're not close and there is a reason!
June 19, 2008 5:47pm
Are my parents so dense? My mom completely blew up at me today. There's a new girl across the street who is my age and only here for the summer, …
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Hey there I know youre Busy thought I say Hi was thinikng of you hope work is gioing well for You and that youre Ok Take care have a Great week EXCEL!!!
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have a great friday and let me see a smiling face
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Hey heres Ahug To start youre week of Well great to hear things are going Well Excel !!!
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Have not been here in a long time. Glad to be back. *Hug*
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the art projects went good my teacher liked my mc escher illustrated quote i had to stay up all night to finish them.summer is kinda boring my dads car isnt working so cant go any where.hows your summer?
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Support Groups
Close Depression - Teen
I became depressed when I was 15. I tried to figure out what was wrong and I asked my mother, who sent me to a school counselor without warning. It's been a problem since then but I can control it to some extent. I learned to turn off my emotions. I tried going to a counselor but she turned out to be the mother of a classmate and later I tried medication but it made me suicidal. I'm planning on trying counseling again during the summer.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- It made me suicidal...Needless to say, it didn't work in the least.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It never worked but then again, I couldn't trust my counselor. Turns out she was a class/teammate of mine's mother...Fun.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Close Self-Injury
I wanted to cut for a long time but I was afraid people would notice. Finally, I broke down and started. It was after a huge problem that I blamed myself for came up. The only way to deal with the guilt and pain was cutting. It's just so much easier to physically feel the pain.
Open Sexual Abuse
I don't know what to call it...Sexual harassment? Abuse? I don't know. When I was 15 my "brother" (a family friend 13 yrs older) started liking me and being touchy. When I was 17, a coach of mine started liking me. Then there have been other lesser things. It's just the story of my life.
Open College Stress
I'm at a college that I basically don't like. It's really Christian and I am not at all so it makes it really awkward. Not to mention the fact that it's fun dealing with problems with guys plus friends who then decide they hate you for no apparent reason in addition to all the work and depression. Plus some professors aren't very accepting if you aren't Christian
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My parents don't want me to transfer schools but they've come to accept it more. And one of my friends calls me weekly to talk which is nice.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionaXmillionXpieces hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
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