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October 6, 2008 6:12pm
Back on after/ during/ a breakdown... brought on by a forced move and a long, difficult search for housing. I have aroof over my head.... no het, no …
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Venge’s Profile
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About Me
I am a visual artist, a sax player, working(very slowly)on a graphic novel.I am an Absurdist.I love this planet...I just don't know how to live on it gracefully.
Interests
Music , graphic novels, unusual, creative forms of communication, yoga, meditation, philosophy, action figures- particularly of obscure heroes or nonentities.
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Recent Activity
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Just visited the website- it is wonderful- and all the drawings and stories I love so well! great work!…
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Hi Alexx... 'been away for ages- how are you doing?…
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Venge gave angelarw33 an I'm with you 6:48pm
hello Angela... I have been gone awhile.. but thinking about you. Have a kind week.…
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Venge commented on angelarw33’s journal entry Where did all my dailystrength buddies go??? 6:47pm
sorry Angela- I have been hiding under the bed for months after a long, traumatic search for housing.…
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Venge updated their status 6:43pm
tired…
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Journal Entry for March 24, 2008
March 24, 2008 2:40am
I am feeling extremely stressed out... the database project I am working to complete is approaching a 1st stage deadline. I will be mostl absent from …
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Journal Entry for February 18, 2008
February 18, 2008 4:51am
I have been very tired lately..... finding it hard to stay awake/ finding it harder still to find words for.... anything. I come here, send hugs when …
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Journal Entry for January 15, 2008
January 15, 2008 3:31am
I have been hiding- nothing new there.... spending bizarre ammounts of time photo-shopping dogs into cars and restauraunts , making horror movies …
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HELLO ......HELLO .......HELLO......HELLO.......HELLO............HELLO.............HELLO CANYOU HEAR ME LOL
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CAN'T WAIT TO CHAT
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Hi Venge ! Thanks for the hug and here's one back from Ontari-ari-o :0) HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS XOXO
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GLAD TO SEE THAT YOU ARE FEELING GOOD. THAT MAKES ,E HAPPY. HURRAY UP AND GET MOVE SO WE CAN HAVE A CHAT. DOING OK
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Hug time again! Hope things are going your way! Laurie xx
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Support Groups
Close Hepatitis C
'diagnosed approx. 1 year ago,suffer from chronic ,sometimes painful/sometimes debilitating/ usually depressing symptoms.I feel ill most of the time and worn-out. I am seeking Community.
Treatments
- Dietary Modification Somewhat Helpful
- I have eliminated many foods- most breads,white rice, fried foods.So far fresh fruits & veg. seem kindest to my system.
- Milk Thistle Too Soon to Tell
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI do not remember a time when I was not depressed..and i am nowhere near young anymore,so ..its been awhile.I am bored with it/with me..And I am still putting one foot in front of the other..even if I have to lie down to do it.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- ...like a zombie on speed/an electrified puppet in a rain-storm...
- Elavil Not Working
- no reward,no gold star..no luck at all
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
- ..my thinking is so abstract it is geometry..
- Luvox Not Working
- another bad ride
- Prozac Not Working
- "I Was a Middle-aged Zombie"
- Pamelor Not Working
- Yet another med. that worked a little bit for a little while..and then didn't.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
abused as a young child , victim of several violent crimes , seen a lot of bad s**t - from military coups to bar fights, to hell and ... not quite back.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- I am an artist ... sometimes , My work is , by luck rather than plan , therapeutic.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Yeah, yeah: its all in my head / I am what I think --or is that "I am what YOU think ?" ... I can never keep this stuff straight..
- Effexor Not Working
- Insane Puppet Syndrome.
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
- Paxil Not Working
- Bleeding gums and brain-so-numb.
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- not too helpful - I just hate talking about the details... I don't ever plan to talk about the details.
- Remeron Not Working
- The only drug that has ever worked well for me - I was devastated when it stopped working.
- Supportive Care Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- It is hard to make myself sit .. just sit/ I am uneasy being still with my thoughts ? have difficulty detaching..
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I am an artist.. suffer from major depression & PTSD. Being out in the world has become increasingly difficult. My fears are irrational.. and overwhelming.
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