It's Been Hell
April 10, 2008 8:04am
I have been trying to hold it all together for several months now. Almost lost my sister in December and my Dad is not doing well either. …
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foolthatIam
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About Me
45 year old with 2 kids. Married 20 years and still love him. Knows about 4(affairs), wonders about more. My spouse was diagnosed with BP last year. My Dad has terminal colon cancer...we are taking each day as it comes. I was date raped in my early 20's. Joined for emotional support/advise...
Interests
My kids are my biggest interest! I love to read and watch HGTV! I just want to make everyone happy...
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Journal Entry for August 19, 2007
August 19, 2007 10:25pm
It seems to be starting all over again...nothing is good enough and no one does things right for him. He is nasty and angry all of the time …
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Journal Entry for July 30, 2007
July 30, 2007 9:03pm
Sorry I have not written in a while. My Dad is not doing well and my sister flew in from Colorado to see him and we have been there visiting …
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Journal Entry for July 24, 2007
July 24, 2007 8:00pm
I am so tired of all of the crap that some people like to sling at others just to make themselves appear more important or better in some way. …
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Journal Entry for July 22, 2007
July 22, 2007 4:40pm
Wow, today was a beautiful day. The sun was shining and the light breeze blowing...it is a beautiful day to be alive! I hope everyone …
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Hay checked and saw u hadn't had a hug here for ages! Take care.
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Sorry been neglecting some of my friends. Here's a hug just for you! Hope your doing well.
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I haven't seen you in a long while. Are we just on at different times. Love ya anyway, Mary ♥
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Support Groups
Close Infidelity
I have been married for over 20 years. I know of at least 4 times that my spouse has cheated on me, yet I still love him and want to stay with him. My spouse has bipolar disorder, this should not be an excuse, it should be an illness that we deal with and try to conquer. I know this is not my "fault" but how do I continue to live with this and work towards our life together without always feeling it is happening again?
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Counseling tends to work during the sessions...but then after you have been away from it for a while, it tends to be forgotten
Close Colon Cancer
Stage: IV (Any T, Any N, M1)My Dad has been diagnosed with terminal colon cancer. He has so far gotten an extra 6 months out of chemo. He gets real sick and weak. This is so hard to watch as he was the strong one, my rock.
Open Bipolar Disorder
I have been married to the same man for almost 21 years. He was diagnosed with BP last year after a meltdown where HE filed for divorce and left town when I would be served the papers. I moved in with my Dad and ended up being the one to take care of my spouse when he was released from the hospital. We are together again but things are so very he has his ups and downs. I need support to deal with these moods and the intensity when then switch back and forth so very fast.
Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I have two children one is 19 (boy) and the other is 16 (girl) You never get used to them growing up and you always want to be able to "fix" their hurts or misbehaving...I have learned you cannot make all of their decisions for them. Too many "what if's" to mention...many experiences!
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Daughter at a party where alcohol was present...Made a bad decision...regrets it to this day! We have tried to show her what can happen...they have to experience things
Open Rape
I went out with a guy that some of my friends set me up with. It turned out he was a very angry person because he could not have children..so it did not matter that he rape me because he could not get me pregnant...but he did leave me something to remember him by...I was treated for a STD for several years thereafter. Of course he denied the rape part...but when you say NO and they don't listen..what else can you call it!
Open Diabetes Type 2
After finding out my Dad had terminal colon cancer it put a scare into me to go to the doctor myself...short version...I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes...we caught it early but just one more thing to deal with in this life!
Treatments
Open Alcoholism
We just found out my sister has been an alcoholic for 15 years. She hid it well. She is now in the hospital with liver damage and has a 50/50 chance at survival..how can I help her? What can I do? She is a very private person and gets cold when you try to help!
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