Journal Entry for January 2, 2007
I guess I should start at the beginning. Actually the beginning is too long to get into let me just state the facts I have been with my fiancee for …
is feeling Horrible
Not married engaged/or I was until....
I guess I should start at the beginning. Actually the beginning is too long to get into let me just state the facts I have been with my fiancee for …
If you are religious start a prayer life. It has helped me get to where I am which is ok. If you ask you shall recieve. Once a cheater always a cheater. There is a way out you just have to really concentrate on the solution. Friends and family will help if you ask. Keep your head up. You did not deserve it and it is not your fault.
Put you and your baby first!!!
Things will get better, you just need to take care of you and your son.
I guess I should start at the beginning. Actually the beginning is too long to get into let me just state the facts I have been with my fiancee for 3.5 years. We have a 7mos old child and he has cheated on me 4 times with 3 different women. One of which was when I was pregnant and on bedrest. Now yesterday I found out that he slept with my best friend who I no longer speak with. Why am I still with this person? Am I some kind of masochist? I always made an excuse for him like all guys cheat or he really loves me. And ever since we had the baby I told myself that I was staying with him because we had our baby. The truth is I hate the person I am with him. I can't even look myself in the mirror. I feel trapped in this situation financially and emotionally and I also feel trapped by not wanting to raise my son alone
I have a 7mos old baby boy named Tristan and I adore him. He has had a few challenges in his short life he has had meningitis and is also unable to drink regular formula he is on soy. My biggest concern however is that he doesn't interact well with others he cries if someone else holds him. He does not like his swing, playard or walker he just wants me to play with him all the time am I spoiling my son?