Journal Entry for August 18, 2008
I did it! I'm really proud of myself right now. I finally made eye contact with my therapist, and it was more than just the two second glance up …
is feeling Horrible
I lost a close friend on Tuesday.
"I am... A little bit of lonliness, A little bit of disreguard, A handful of complaints, But I can't help the fact that everyone can see these scars" "I am... A little bit insecure, A little unconfident, Cause you don't understand I do what I can But sometimes I don't make sense" (Linkin Park)
Jenn8 wrote a discussion post in the Sexual Abuse support group: Confused? 3:50pm
I'm really confused at the moment and I was wondering if anyone had any advice. I recently started seeing…
Jenn8 changed their mood to Horrible 10:25am
Jenn8 updated their status 10:25am
I lost a close friend on Tuesday.…
Jenn8 changed their mood to OK 10:44pm
Jenn8 wrote a discussion post in the Sexual Abuse support group: Freaking out. 9:39pm
First of all, I hope you guys have been hanging in there. I know I haven't been around much, with everything…
I did it! I'm really proud of myself right now. I finally made eye contact with my therapist, and it was more than just the two second glance up …
Tyler,
I always loved you. Don’t tell me that I didn’t. I loved you as much as any 16-year-old girl could. I stood up for you when no one …
I have a voicemail on my phone from my therapist. It's been there for about, 7 hours. And I just can't get myself to listen to …
I meant to update this on Monday, but I just plain forgot.
Anyway, I did it. I got rid of my last blade. It actually didn't turn out the way …
Just a song that's meant a lot to me the past couple of weeks.
"It's something I'm not supposed to talk about, the way you …
I'm 17 and I've been struggling with depression and self-injury for a couple of years now.
I've been self injuring for a couple of years. My methods are scratching (sometimes drawing blood, sometimes not), hitting (until there is bruising or the skin bleeds very slightly), and more recently cutting w/ a piece of broken plexiglass.
Don't know if I'm quite ready to get into that yet. I'm just now starting to deal with it in therapy.
I was born with clubfeet. Casts were first used to try and straighten my feet, but those were unsuccessful so I had corrective surgery after that. I've had two minor surgeries since then, and one major coming up next summer.
I've been shy for as long as I can remember. I have trouble speaking up, or speaking in class. I won't volunteer to answer questions in class, even if I'm 99% sure of the answer.
I've always been an anxious person. My anxiety however has worsened over the last couple of years.
I didn't know until very recently that what I was having were panic attacks.
I've lost quite a few people. My best friend Gracie when I was 12, my cousin Will when I was 13 or 14, my close friend Adam around the same time, my friend Callie two years ago this September, and more recently my best friends mom (june 28) and my "big sister" Lauren (august 6).
I was sexually abused, and then later raped by a (now ex) boyfriend.