julies3's Journal

well I havent written in awhile, things have been going well for me, He is still acting like he wants to be here, am still not sure  am buying the bull shit he is selling, but atleast there hasnt been any drama around here.  He has even told me he loves me twice, I really didnt knwo what to say back,  and he didnt seem to mind that I didnt answer. I guess am just focusing on myself for awhile, and am not into caring what he thinks or says. He even stayed home on saturday night, so I could go out with some friends for my birthday!  He told me I deserved to have sometime away from the house. I know I deserve alot more than that!  I guess today went well, am just in a mood, because I turned 39 today, and next year will be the big 40, and am not looking forward to that at all, I guess , on my birthdays I tend to look back and think about how my life, went for that last year, and how I want this year to be, and let me tell you I would never relive this last year, if you paid me!!! but I know one thing is fursure, this year will be different , and I will be a better person  for what I have been through. I will never aloud him to make me unhappy again, even if all of what he is doing, turns out to be a lie, I will get through this.