julies3's Journal

 Just when I thought  that things were finally getting better, He tells me today, that he may loose his job, Just f****ing great, couldnt keep his big mouth shut, couldnt do what they want them to do, Had to change himself so much  all the tatoos, and the mohawk, that they were looking  for anything to rid of him, all now they can! and if they do I wil be screwed! All he had to do was hold that job for 1 more week and the papers would have been signed, but no, he had to f***k with me one more time!   I really feel, like he does this shit on purpose, I know I may be wrong for thinking that way, but why!  I have been keeping my faith, but again it is being tryed,   All  I wanted was there to be no more DRAMA, and it was looking like it was finally over, my life was getting better, I had a plan, had all the bills paid, knew that I could make it on my own,  I could stand on my own, I would never have to relie on him again, he would never  be able to call me a burden again, I could take care of myself and my kids , all he had to do was pay his child support, and I could do the rest, His child support was and needs to my rent,  I do have money saved to cover 2 months,  so if he does loose his job that will buy me sometime  until he finds other job, but what will happen if he doesnt,  He has changed so much lately I never know what to except next, he really could screw me if he wanted too! and he may just want to do that, So now once again I play the waiting game.

   UPDATE!!! the fool called me tonight to ask me for some tuperware, so he can bring his dinner to work, I notice that his voice echoed , so I asked him,    where he was, he said that he was at home, I got suspended today from work, just for tonight, and he will know if he has a job tommorrow. I asked him what he was going to do if he lost his job, he said he would find another one right away!  so thats good, he may have a plan, lets see if he sticks to it!!!