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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Today was a strange day, Even though I feel like a dealing with this divorce thing well, and I feel like I am now ready to move on with my life, I cant help but to wonder why? WHy did he do this, what or who was so important to him, to end this marrage. Even though he has turned into someone, who I dont want to be married to anymore, He wasnt always like that, His kids at one time were the most important thing to him, and now he hardly even speaks to them, and even though our marrage wasnt always perfect, we loved each other , and always said we would never get divorced, we would always find a way to work things out, and did, until now! I mean we dont even fight anymore, we even hug eachother goodbye, and he wants to be friends, but my feelings are if I wasnt good enough for you to be married to me, then why friends, but for the kids sake, I play his game. I just dont get it!!!!! WHY WHY WHY, throw everything away, His whole life as changed, he has a life that am not even part of, and has had that for awhile, I just dont get how someone could change into a whole different person!

I was telling a friend of mine about the question, and she said that maybe for me to have total closer with all of this I need to have those questions answered!

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he is a stranger and you just dont know him anymore, sex is always a reason for these men to divorce, and they are crazy. these men we married are not our husbands, they are aliens. does that help? i am so sorry you are having to go thru this but it is normal and healthy. dealing with it will help you not have to revisit this years down the road or carry it into another relationship. we win, we are normal, good people who love our kids and they love us.

dumpedwith4kids
That is the big question. Why. Sometimes we get the answer, sometimes we don't. But you just have to know that he is not the man he was. It's tough to accept. It's all about choices. Some day, he'll realize it but it's sometimes too late. So sad. I actually encountered a friend on my convention and he is thinking of leaving his wife and it made me sick. He said she didn't make him happy! It's not someone else's responsibility to make you happy. But listening to him was just like listening to my X when he first left. You may get your answer to why and you may not but don't let it drive you crazy.

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