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Saturday, May 17, 2008

well he is not comming home, I will go and file the paper work, as soon as I can get a day off of work, he has turned into his hateful self again, and told me, he would never come back to this house, and told me all I did for 19 yrs was put him though hell, that he doesnt want me, and nobody ever will. that is when the phone go hung up, I did say, that it sad that he needs to belittle me to make himself feel better, and I will not stand for in anymore, I am someone, who is a good person, I have done a good job raisning this kids pretty much by myself, it hurts like hell, and am not sure at times if I get though this, but I know I need to, I can no longer let him, do this to me, he wants me to be weak so that he can have what he wants, he doesnt feel good about himself, unless am feeling bad about me, that to me is sick, and I need to get the hell away from him, I dont want my kids to grow up like him, I really would like to figure out away so he cant be around him, all his haterd toward me is wrong, and it scares me, I will have to get these locks changed as soon as I can,

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jules, i will tell you what so many told me.. its probably another woman. they get mean and nasty to us since its easier for their heartless souls to deal with. you did everything you could do. its time to plan a trip to my coast for a weekend this summer. we can do it when nathan is at camp so his big room is free. i think its the week of june 30th. its time for fresh air and you and i can enjoy ourselves too. i have a pool and trampoline, 20 minutes to great beaches. so look at the end of june and i will find out when nathan leaves for sure. if not, the kids live downstairs on the couches and you can have hannahs room. what weekend looks good. its fun to plan.. i am serious and not just saying it... okay? look at your calendar and talk to your kids. we will do it all easy and fun and cheap!! its time to put some distance between you and the ass.

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Julie. The key is to not aggravate him but to talk calmly. You don't want him out of your children's life, you just need him to quit hurting you. Stay focused on what you and your kids need, keep calm but firm in dealing with your stbx and whatever you do, don't beg or keep giving him opportunities. Show him you're strong. Proverbs says you get more with honey. That doesn't mean you give in, it just means you are kind. So many people get the two mixed up. You can be kind and still not sell your soul. Hang in there. You can do this. It is so painful, but that's why you're here on DS. Lots of love and hugs.

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