julies3's Journal

things have been going okay, am having a hard time with the kids, I think it is finally setting in that their dad isnt comming home, yesterday, was really bad, lots of crying and yelling, they are so mad, at him and at me, and I dont blame them, but I cant fix this by myself, I tried to tell them that this is just a break, for us, but its hard to convince them, when am not sure myself. I am just giving them lots of love and tring my hardest not to lose it with them, keeping my cool, I had to go to the school today, for my son, he is having the hardest time with this, hard than the girls are, he really misses his dad, and he is so mad at him for leaving, of course he thinks it is his fault, and wont believe me when I tell him it isnt. He has been having out burtst in class, and the teacher didnt know why, so I had to tell a bunch of people I dont know what my personal  bussiness is, and let me tell you, it was hard not to just say, listen the asshole just desided he didnt want this family anymore, I had to sound all ,we are just having problems , and we are trying to work through this, when the fact is the "dumbass" just wants to be a part time father when it fits into his schule,   when I called him and told him, what was going on, he didnt even want to talk to our son today, he was going to let it go until saturday, because he didnt want to feel guitly for what he is doing, so if he pretends its not happening, then he doesnt feel guilty, but I informed him, that the next time the school calls, he can go, and when the kids are crying and asking me why, this is happening, they will be calling him, and he can tell them why,  What a day, and think it isnt even over yet!!!!!