julies3's Journal

well after his little temper taturm last night, it is safe to say I have made the right choice, and the way he behave last night, is what I need to remember when I get the "more mes". He couldnt even take 5 minutes of his time, to put the oil and gas in our son motorcross bike, so that he could ride it today, because he doesnt want him riding it during the week, bullshit! he didnt do it ,because I asked him too, so I guess I will learn how to mix gas and oil together, just yet another thing I will have to do on my own!  and you know what it feels pretty damm good to know that I can do things for myself, lets see I paid all the bills this  month, except for the house payment, he paid  that, for now he has still agreed to do that. for me, but everything else I did, and you know it felt pretty damm good, knowing that I can stand on my own too feet, but i do know that, if I do deside to divorce him, I will not be able to live in this house, even with childsupport I will never be able to pay the house payment,  and I hate the thought of my kids having to leave their home, schools, and friends, so for right now, has long as he contuies to pay the house payment, and stays away, which I know he will, he wants nothing to do with me, am not one of his partying drinking friends, and with the summer comming who doesnt like a good party! I wil leave things how they are now, he has his life, and I will have mine, I plan to enjoy this summer with my kids, and friends, so for today, am doing okay!