julies3's Journal

the week ended better then it began, am still having a hard time with all of this. but I know I need to keep telling myself why I did this, He is a asshole, plain and simple!  and I need to remember that at all times, it is like he enjoys hurting me, thats why he told me he only wanted to go out on the boat with the kids, not with all of us, and that he had a party to go to afterwards, see , he know that will get to me, and the dumbass that I am, let it, and I know as long as he sees that , it bothers me . he will contunie to do it. I try to be  strong, but sometimes it feels like am under water, and I cant get any air!