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Journal Entry for February 11, 2008 Mood

Monday, February 11, 2008

I got back from the hospital about 2 hours ago. Just had another MRI. I am feeling all sorry for myself. I have already had such a bad 2008 and it's only feb. I am feeling alone. I hate having MRI's but this is how it's going to be for a while isn't it. Constantly having appointments and blood test. I already have to have regular smears (had an op for that couple years back) I virtally grew up in hospitals, so it's not that I am scared of them/doctors. I am just very very tired of struggling with everything. Very tired emotionally and physically. I just want a break for a few months with no hospitals, no man probs, no family stuff and no one dying. It's always one thing after another and if one more person comments on how strong I am............... If they only knew the really me. I feel like I am constantly on the go. Full time boss, single mum of two, angony aunt to all my friends, local friendly bank to my sister, etc I am fed up!!

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Bless your heart. Yes, you need a break, but these Pit tumors have a mind all their own. It takes time and unfortunately...you are in this for a long time to come. Talk to your doctor about antidepressants or something. I might be able to recommend something to you for the anxiety and stress.

c140cfi
BO3 If I could I would now be with you and give you the biggest hug and we would sit together and cry and then eat the biggest bar of chocolate I want you to know you are not alone we have similar profiles I understand about losing people and having a pit tumour and yes its hard to be strong when you have sadness in your heart but you have me as your friend and I know C140cfi is a good listener and friend so you have the support of two people you will get through this.JJx

J0KEYJ
Thanks. It means a lot to me to know that I have friends here. It's good to know that there are people out there that understand how I am feeling. most others either can't see anything worng so think I am just moaning about nothing or think I am about to die any second.

B03