Journal Entry for July 6, 2007
This battle with food keeps going....Counting calories.....Becoming sick......Being sick.......A constant cylcle...But unable to pin point …

This battle with food keeps going....Counting calories.....Becoming sick......Being sick.......A constant cylcle...But unable to pin point …
I hate this feelinging inside of me....Why can't i just be happy and eat normal....I can't go out for a meal because i feel like i can't …
Today is like no other i have been voilently sick for the 8th time today. My stomach aches and i see blood.....I cry today because the fear that i …
it is so hard to be with them but feel so alone in the world because i am divorced and my children are grown and gone I am on disability because of the severe abuse by my father, may he rest in peace with his wisky and my seven brothers, one very sadistic.my family has continued to abuse me verbally and denies that i was ever abused.i can't be with them but miss having people. my therapist suggests making a new family. don't really know how that works. everyone i know has their own family. signed heiny, my grandmothers name
Still think about you. I made progress with my food intake. I hope you have as well. :) Thanksgiving was a good temptation. ;)
Thinking about you and hoping things get better soon! :)
Hope you are keeping safe x
I just wanted to say "Hi." I know I have not been around as much. I have been struggling and had to go to the hospital. I want you to know I am still thinking about you and praying things will get better for you soon! :)
I have a disorder like no other an anxiety and eating disorder although i am in pure denial of this i believe i have something serioslu wrong with me i have an ever lasting pain around me and an emptyness and fear that controlls my entier life
I STILL FEEL THE PAIN ON MY BODY AN ADULT LEANING OVER ME AND PUNCHING OUT WITH STRENGTH THAT A CHILD CAN NOT BEAT...I CAN STILL REMEMBER THE FEAR OF DEATH THAT ANOTHER PUNCH TO MY HEAD COULD ONLY LEAD TO......I CAN REMBER THERE IS NO WAY U CAN FORGET THE TIMES UR BODY GOES NUMB AND U DRIFT