tryingtomoveon's Journal

Well it's been a year since I got put out. I still have hurt feelings but I know for sure it's time to move on. I hate beening lonely. Especially on the weekends. I don't have any family or friends here where I live. I need to know what is the best way to meet new friends when you're in a strange town. And where is the best place to meet good women that are single.  I mean women who have a heart. If there is anybody out there who can help me please let me know. It's gotta be a least one woman out there who needs a good man. Thanks for your help.

Well I finally got my divorce papers signed by STBX. After I filed she waited about a month then she tried to get me to come back. We talked but we only ended up arguring. She wanted to tell me what she wanted but she didn't wanna here anything I had to say. She even hung up on me when I tried to tell her how I feel about things.  So I desided to go ahead and take papers to my lawyer and go ahead with divorce. I don't know if I was right or wrong but I did what I had to do. Every time I look for a sign she would do something evil like throwing my possions away I left in shed. Even after that she wanted me to come and spend the night with her. She tried to get me to let her borrow money and when I didn't she got mad at me. I just thought it best to end things the way they are. I told her if she didn't wanna compromise it would be like before. Things always has to be her way. The only thing I hate she turns everything around and makes it sound like everything is all my fault. She had about four different excuses for our breakup. I just couldn't let her tear my heart apart again. I though If she really loved me she would be willing to share more with me but she only cared about herself. My feeling, my thought, It didn't matter I was never right. I felt like I was a nobody to her. I was all alone in the marriage. I couldn't do anything to please her. Help me to move on somebody!

Well I couldn't take it no more. I broke down and went and filed for divorce myself. I know the reason why she wouldn't do it is cause she wanted me to pay for it. But I wanna move on and get this behind me. Still some days I feel good and others I still feel the pain. I found out if you get up and do things, anything, it helps keep your mind occupied. One day I'm gonna be happy again. And the past will be the past. I just wish I could have done things different but I realize it takes two in a  relationship. If one doesn't love the other you can't do a damn thing about it. You just count your blessing and go on. I think God it wasn't worse then it was. We didn't have any kids and I had enough since not to adopt hers. I ended up with all the financial responsabilitys but with the help of God I'll be alright. Thanks also for my to new dear friends KayM and Staceyp.