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Journal Entry for March 8, 2007 Mood

Thursday, March 8, 2007

A feeling of extreme loneliness swept over me a few minutes ago. I want to cry but it seems pointless to do so. I have this horrible ache in the pit of my stomache. I can't tell you what set it off; I miss him. This sadness has been with me for so long and it's hard to see past it.

The day started off so well. My nephew had put me in such a good mood last night. He had me laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes. Then I got a message from a friend here at DS that made me smile. Truth be told, everyone here at DS has made me smile at some point. That's what makes this sudden sadness so confusing to me. Maybe I just wanted to tell John the high points of the day and it makes me miss him more because he isn't here.

Drat - the tears are here and I'm spending too much time wiping the tears away. Gotta go.

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Guess that's what I hate so much about this experience...how it's totally out of our control and the sadness just comes out of nowhere sometimes. And the simplest things, like not being able to share your day with the person who would be most interested, can just break your heart. All I can say is we're here for you and maybe together we can all get through this. Lotsa hugs.

Creidance
I know what you mean! (((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) Kat

JonsKat
I know where your at with your loneliness. Dennis was the one I talked to on my way to work and on my way home. He always managed to make me laugh and make me realize that no matter what had happened he would be there for me when I got home. Now when I get in my car and reach for my phone I have to think about what I will do on the driove home. He;s not there for me to call. The tears seem to come from no where doesn't it! I guess its one second at a time right now and then me move on from there to minutes, hours, days, weeks etc. Hope your day is a bright and sunny one and that you laugh today instead of cry. Love you Norma

normag