Journal Entry for May 31, 2008
Soo everything is lil better then before. movin today maybe not sure yewt but i'll try to write another time..bizzy right now aiight laater. Good …
is feeling Good
I'm eighteen years old. I love music(seriously, what human doesn't have music in there life). I love to write, mostly songs though. I'm one of 'em types of girls that are ExTremely SHY..aight and totally down to earth, Honest, and confused. I love my kitten, Tommie, he's just such a beautiful cat. Aiight so thats all i'm sayin bout me soo laaater ya'll!! Good Daay!!!! (L) xoxoxox
Music, art, and my animals. Make others feel good 'bout everything..that includes a smile or a laugh(if that makes sense). xox
Soo everything is lil better then before. movin today maybe not sure yewt but i'll try to write another time..bizzy right now aiight laater. Good …
I reallly am fucken twisted,really. Like maaan I got issues,quite abit of em tooo daaamn. I was staabbed in my home at a party last weeekend,four …
I guess I am alright but still kindof dead feeling. Its like soo cold outside Minus 50 and its gonna be like dat all weekend. I havnt gone to school …
Soo Todaay is pretty Un-awesome! My mom is angry at me,My brother Joshua wants to murder me,My other Brother Bryan doesnt talk to me,My mom's …
Aint doin much,but it's Christmas eve and I want to tell everyone Happy holidays and New year of 2008. This weekend I had sensual …
same! happy and it feels awesome :D lol enjoying summer?
hihi!!! hows it going? :D
I think it's best if you wait because sex really isn't all what it's crack up to be. you might have a partner that's just in it for the wrong reasons. Such as, just trying to take your virginity just to say they took someone's virginity.
hey! how are you doing? :D
Hey whats up I havent been online in awhile how are you ???
My family is nagative towards me.They act rude to me and blame things on me.I have lost alot of family but I didnt cry even tho I was upset of the loss.My family is complicated,and Faacked up.
I'm a very shy girl.I dunt know why but it's something i can't over come.I am more confident and whaatevre but still a bit shy.
Basically,my life makes me dead.I believe I was raped at age 10 by a family member.My drug overdose lastsummer of 06,Now I feel kinda different,but the thing about it is the bad mind trip I had still haunts me.Family issues,and places i hadto live.Life iz shiit but gotta keep moin on i guess.
My moms currrent boyfriend beats me infront of my mom.She doeznt even give a daamn.He smacked me 3 weeks ago on the jaw area and it hurt like a bitch.couldnt eat solid food foe 2 weeks.I charged him with assualt but he still comes around drunk or high off prescribed Meds.
Okaay,so I freak out and bitch over little things.Can't control it.I do need help.there isnt anything to help me with this problem cos i live in a small town.I blame it on my life...my miserable 17 years of life..
I harm myself.started at age 13-14.Stopped foe 7monthes but now i'm at it agaain but worse.I can't feel it. all started when my back stabbin friends told outragous rumours bout me havin sex with my cousins.I know,Ain't thaat disgusting,and acually they are the ones whu are causin fackerz.anywaze,the whole town believed it making me feel worthless,and like shit.But I got through it okaaay.Theres more on why I harm myself.family,and shit thaat goes on..never stops.
I'm seventeen.Female.Kindof have temptations for sex for the first time.I feel kindof alone,like the only Teenage virgin in town.Whaat the hell should I do? Waait or just get it done wit? Should I start birth control?
I noticed I've been developing a Eating disorder.My weight in Jan 07 was 140 Pounds but now I've lost 30 pounds making me 110IBS within 8 months. I feel fat tho,Depression is deepin. I never ment to do this,Dying to be tin is harsh.
I'm 17...18 in Jan. I started smoking at 14-15.Thought I looked hott,and pure pressure from friends..I fail P.E class now cos i cant run foe ahile without sweating hardcore and breath. I want to quit but I have nobody for support. Ciigarettes taste different now,its sick.