Sephone's Journal

Hello!

I hope all of you are well.  I feel terrible about never being on.  I am at work again and just never have time anymore.

Right now I'm taking the week off to stay with my best friend.

It's really hard not to drink right now.  I know it will only get harder later in the week.

I've been dealing with some image issues.  Since I had people ask me if I'm pregnant I feel severely overweight.  There have been days that I did not want to leave my house because I didn't want anyone to look at me.  I tried the raw food diet but ut us umpossible to do when I'm not at home.  I feel like I can't win.  Yesterday I sat by the pool with some friends, and eventhough I have what I think is the cutest bathiung suit I've ever owned, I still felt disgusting.  I don't know what to do with myself.  I just can't feel good about the way that I look.  Now is the time I should be doing a photoshoot, but I dare not schedule one.  I just want to lose ten more pounds.  I feel like it's impossible.