TrishW's Journal

I'm glad today is winding down.  I'm glad it's nearly over.  I was certain ths morning that, as soon as I posted my journal entry, I'd crash for hours since I had only gotten 2 hours of sleep last night.  Not so, as it turned out.  Somewhere around 7:30am, Mokie  and I curled up together on the couch, and we went out like lights.  BUT...barely 2 hours later, I was wide awake...and so was Mokie.  I never went back to sleep all day; all she's done is snooze in her kitty bed over on my bed.  Hence, at this moment, I'm quite tired and ready for my day to end.  And I'm very jealous of Mokie! LOL

All day both knees have felt feverish!  They feel hot and achy.  Especially my R one.  Bending my legs makes them feel as though they are inflamed.  When I wrap them in elastic wraps, they feel so much better, but they swell.  Without the wraps, my knees lack stability and ache even more.

Everything I hear these days about knee replacement surgery is encouraging.  Of course, the single greatest comment I hear is how much less pain one feels after havingjoint replacement done.  This is HUGE!!!  I first began to have trouble w/my R knee when I was 17 years old.  I'm 55 now.  Do the math.  It's alot of years to be in pain.  My L knee began to have problems when I was 25.  Here, again, just do the math.  And during these intervening years, I've experienced numerous injuries and undergone several operations to both knees, all of which have increased the pain and ongoing discomfort I've experienced virtually every day of my life. So it is that I would welcome relief from pain in both knees.  Knee replacement surgery sounds very appealing to me in many ways.

Having said all of this, I have to acknowledge, too, that I'm more than a little scared.  Replacement joints still don't last "forever."  And if I have surgery now, there's a good chance I'll have to have my 'replacement joints" replaced again several years from now.  I just don't look forward to that.  At the same time, though, the idea of freeing myself from the intensity of this pain after so many years of hurting is incredibly appealing to me...

I'm more than a little pissed off w/Dr. H today.  He told me I might hear from either the ortho or neuro specialist by as early as Fridayk, and that led me to believe he jumped right on things.  NOT!!  I finally called his office today ony to learn that apparently NOTHING had been done at all on my referrals!  I was told that Dr. H's nurse would get right back to me.  Surprise!  Surprise!  I never heard from her the rest of the day!  Tomorrow I will make more calls. 

I don't think I really have much else to write tonight.   I'm exhausted.  I ache.  I want to go lie down.  I actually want a good night's sleep.  May it happen, finally, tonight.

Namaste.

PS:  I found Ry's hat this evening.  On the desk in his room.  Buried beneath what I believe to be a pair of bright red shorts.  And some other unidentifiable items I'd rather not ask him about...LOL