melliethebee's Journal

Having another bad day today

Yesterday was a good day, i went shopping with my sister and my niece and also saw some friends and their gorgoues little girl whom i hadnt seen in ages but she just loved me! Its crazy to think she may have remebered, but i no its said babies under one do not remember people after 24 hours!! Its weird! But anyways there all really happy for me so i was happy

but then as soon as i got home my happiness seemed to disappear and this angry upset person came back! I just wnated to be happy and enjoy my pregnancy. I try talking to damian but its like hes pushing me out, maybe so he doesnt have to deal with the pain of the lossing again. But i really feel this is our chance, this is our time.

So i sit at home not feeling like i can be bothered doing anything, it was a struggle to come on here but ive been bidding on a car on a auction website so i had to check on that! I have a doctors appointment next week to find out how many weeks i am yay! and my sisters  alrady sorted me out a midwife so all good!