melliethebee's Journal

A week since your death, oh baby you wouldnt believe how much im missing you, Me and Levi have moved to mum and dads. Kathys mum offered to take Levi so i could be on my own, But i need him, hes helping me. Im still finding it hard to belive your gone, i stood at your graveside wondering why the hell you left me, i was so angry at you for leaving baby, but now i realised they needed you up there, u gotta look after Liam for me please. Tell him i love him an miss him everyday. I wish you both were here with me. Its not fair that you were taking from me. I love you so so much

I think its finally time to explain to all of you what happened to damian. I have tears in my eyes writting this, but i guess one day i need to tell. Damian was working Saturday mrning last week. Fridays night he went to his mate Davids after work. We had been car sharing so i picked up my car, i tried to concenice him to come but he wanted to stay and drink, i had levi and he needed to be put to bed. So i went home. At about 5 damiana nd his mate went to work, both to drunk to drive, but for some reason did not call in sick, even if they had called me to come and take them to work, that would ave been better then drving. I get a call from my sister, Who goes out with David, sayong the boys had gone to wor drunk i got this funny feeling in my tummy and abot 30 mintues later i got levi up and was in the car, i wasnt sure where i was going i drove to their work, davids car was not there, i drove the way i new they would have driving, and about 50 metres up the road,m i see davids cae smashed into a power pole. I stop my car and grab levi i run to the scene the officer telols me to pack off, i scream and say thats my parter, is he okay im crying and not meaning to but im scaring Levi. A female officer approachs and take Levi from my arms. The male officer explains to me that the driver is alive but the passenger is dead, i new damian was the passnger, i started screaming and thrwew myself at the ground, somehow my sister magically apeared and was holding me in her arms, i waited for the all clar before they let me see Damian, i decided not to let levi see him, so my sister called my mum and dad to come to the scene. My minds blurry about what happened next, it all seems like  a daze, i cant believe my honey is gone. I love him so much. David was in shock, he blames himself, i tink they were both stupid, but i dont blame anyone. I just wish we could change things. At least damian can be with Liam now watching over me!! HIs funeral was hard, but i tried to honor him best i possibly could he deserved that