bugged's Journal

Trying to get things organized - it never ends - I work all day then come home and try to get things organized - looks like I may have to take a few days holidays soon in order to accomplish more.   Oh well - maybe next year I'll be able to take a holiday and enjoy myself, lol.

Trying to organize things here in the house and need to look for an apartment .... so much to do, so little time. 

Too much stress in my life, at home, at work - it would be nice just to have a quiet day - it would be nice for things to turn around and just be good again - they will I am sure of that.

My dad was down and cleaned up the back yard - dumpster comin this week so we can get on with it - to top it all off Jord started playoffs this week - 2 games - one tonight - the one thing I love is watching him play, they won tonight - was a pretty good game - Jess and i went and of course Grandma and Grandpa - I thank god everyday for my family and their support.  He plays out of town on Thursday - not sure if I will go, but my sister will be there - it's close to her place.  They may have lost the support of their father - but their extended family is always there for them - that warms my heart.

Jess is playing in the allstar game on Friday - so I havea 3 hour drive there and back and then this weekend so much to do around the house.

I try every day to let go even more - this man I was married to will have no power over me - it is what it is - I can't change it - but I certainly can go forward from here.  He certainly is the loser in all of this - he made the choice and continues to make huge mistakes - not my problem any more - I can do things the way I feel best - the right way and tackle what I can.  I can hol dmy head high and know that I can treat people with respect, I can love my kids and be there for them and we can laugh and have fun with one another.  We are moving on - we are going to be okay - I'm going to be okay.