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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

We finally booked the place for our wedding next year at his chalet (i think that's how you spell it). So now we have the place, a date, and my dress. Oh and we're pretty sure we have the catering figured out too. We haven't officially booked her yet but i think we're about too. Gosh we are on top of things because we aren't getting married till almost exactly a year from now. We're getting married the last saturday in July next year. I can't remember the exact date. Now I need to take all my brides maids to go try on dresses so they can pick one out. I hope they can all agree on one. We're looking at having about 250 people at the wedding so catering is going to be so expensive cause we're getting really fancy food too. Oh and guess what kind of cake i'm getting???? Go on guess????? Ok i give.. We're getting a cheesecake wedding cake. We called around to all these places that do wedding cakes and they said they couldn't do that cause cheesecakes can't stack on top of each other. So then we called the cheesecake factory and they were like oh for sure we could make one, we make them all the time. I was like SCORE!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways as you can see i'm getting excited for this whole wedding thing even though we have quit a while to wait. Oh well it's better to be early and on top of things then scrambling at the last minute to do everything. That is why weddings are stressful. But mine hasn't been stressfull at all yet.. yay

Well i have been trying to not bring this up in any of my journal entries because it really puts me down and i'm trying to be positive and make this recovery as smoothly as possible but i'm just starting to get uncomfortable in my own body. It seems like i just keep gaining weight. I'm close to the same weight i was a couple years ago in gymnastics. I'm not quit there but close enough to make me upset. I haven't done anything stupid to try and lose the weight but i have been working out like a bitch.. sorry. I just have thsi damn fear that i wont be able to fit in my wedding dress by next year and i have been stresssing about it so much lately i'm scared that i will go to extreme mesures to look good on my wedding day. It's so hard to fight my head telling me to just skip a few meals or purge what i just ate. I'm still doing GREAT in my recovery though. I eat fairly normal and look completely normal now. I get compliments up the butt about how i look which is nice that people aren't always down my back. Well i guess there's my small update on that. love you all

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oooo, your wedding sounds so exciting! And wedding cheesecake will be to die for!! But please please don't feel like you need to be a certain weight on your wedding day. It is more important for you to be in perfect health and ED free than a little thinner and too enveloped by ED to enjoy your wedding day. Just try to be healthy and take good care of yourself and don't worry about it! I know that's easier said than done, but being sick for your wedding would ruin everything.

emibee3
i agree thanx.. i'm working on it :)

lilgymnast
Ooh, your wedding sounds so exciting! Yeah it's best to ahev everything together way behore hand then to wait last minute. My sister planned her wedding 1 month in advance and she was so stressed out. I never heard of a cheesecake wedding cake. I didn't know they made them that way, but I guess the Cheesecake Factory can do anything when it comes to cheesecakes. Hey, but incase that falls through I make a killer cheesecake. Oh, and am I one of 250 people you are inviting? or am I a brides maid? lol, just kidding!
Is your wedding dress the size you are now or did you get it a size smaller? I really hope you didn't get it smaller because that might make you go to extremes to fit in it. If it's the same size you are now, then all you have to do is stick to whatever you are currently eating and work out but don't go to extremes. You look great now, no need for any change as far as your looks or weight goes.
Good luck with everything and I am so, so excited for you. I'm jealous to be completely honest. I never got a wedding. I had it all planed and I had to cancel it all, but I won't dwell on that with you because that happen to you. I was in a totally different situation the you are.

skinnygirl2525
i hear wedding bells! omg u r gnna be a gorgeous fabulous bride!

missyS
Weddings are are soooo much fun. Be healthy and have a blast planning it. I LOVED planning mine!!!! Sooooo much!!!
xox

LillyAudrey
That is so exciting!! I was just married 2 months agao, and just by reading your journals it is bringing me back!! What a great day it was indeed. I, too, had the ole run in with ED around my wedding..It was def a challenge, and I had to realize that along with marrying the best guy ever and declaring our love that day, I was also leaving behind, on that altar, some really old shit!! Really old distorted ways of thinking of me..Anyway, I don't want to preach at all, but this has all jst happened for me as well. If I can offer some advice, just let me know. I would be glad to share all I can about what is was like and what came up for me. And TRUST that lots will come up!! It was amazing to see all of these things come to the surface as we plan our new lives. Just remember to go slow, and be very gentle with yourself. You also don't wanted to be banded with double-sided tape at your wedding because it is falling off because it is too big because you resorted to old patterns to get in it!!!!. Your new hubby peeling off double-sided tape to get you out of your dress on the wedding night is a memory you can well-avoid!!!! :-)

Consumed